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curiousO
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Irrational fear
I think I figured out what's wrong with me. I have this irrational and uncontrollable fear of fertility meds. I know it sounds almost ridiculous, but I have to actually fight myself to follow dr's orders. I always question if I need this much of this medication, if I need 1,500 of met daily, if I need to start progesterone suppositories right after I O'd ( even though I am sure I am out this month) and the list goes on. Anyone can relate to this? I am just so scared that these meds will totally screw up my body
No flaming, please
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Posted 10/15/10 11:51 AM  |
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FlowerWife
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Re: Irrational fear
one of the hardest things about going through infertility is that you give up all the control of your body to the doctors. in order to do that you HAVE to trust that what they are recommending is in your best interest based on your diagnoses and their years of experience treating patients. if you don't have that trust and you continue to fight the protocols, it's going to make the process a lot more difficult. to be honest, met and progesterone are NOTHING compared to cocktail of meds that you could be on. im not saying don't question the doctors, and don't do your own research, i guess what i am saying is make sure you are comfortable with the doctor that is treating you. you have to have faith that they know what they are doing and only want the best for you, and are doing whatever it takes to get you pregnant. if you don't have that trust with the doctor your are currently seeing, then find one that you do trust. i really think that's one of the most important things in this journey. 
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| Posted 10/15/10 1:18 PM |
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maybemommy10
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Re: Irrational fear
No flaming from me!.....I can totally relate. Before this IF fiasco, i never took ANY meds. MAYBEEEE an advil here or there, then all at once i was on so many meds, pills, needles, suppositories, it was overwhelming. I remember the day i got "my box" and laid everything out....my house looked like a meth lab, and i panicked.
I often wonder, what if any effects this will have on my body...10, 15, 20 years down the line. But for right now, i need to have faith in medicine and in my doctors, that all these things i am putting in my body will only HELP. I keep trying to focus on the end result, MY CHILD.
Fear of the unknown is normal, and all these meds, are NOT normal!!!
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| Posted 10/15/10 1:23 PM |
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curiousO
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Re: Irrational fear
Posted by maybemommy10
I often wonder, what if any effects this will have on my body...10, 15, 20 years down the line.
this is exactly what consumes me, the long term effect of these drugs i know i am being obsessive about it, it is just getting so difficult to control at times.
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| Posted 10/15/10 2:06 PM |
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angel333
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Re: Irrational fear
I used to be obsessive about it myself when I first got myself involved with all of this but I got used to the idea very fast and I don't think about it anymore. At this point point I really don't care what else they do to me to get me pregnant  I"ll have Follistim for breakfast, lunch and dinner if I have to!
 
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| Posted 10/15/10 2:22 PM |
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FlowerWife
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Re: Irrational fear
Posted by angel333
I used to be obsessive about it myself when I first got myself involved with all of this but I got used to the idea very fast and I don't think about it anymore. At this point point I really don't care what else they do to me to get me pregnant I"ll have Follistim for breakfast, lunch and dinner if I have to!
ITA!!!!!
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| Posted 10/15/10 2:45 PM |
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shhhbaby2
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Re: Irrational fear
One of my biggest fears is a little different, but I'm afraid of the effects of the drugs years from now. I can't help but think these hormones may have some bad result down the road. I pray that I'm wrong, but in the beginning I thought about it alot. I forced myself to focus on the good that these drugs do instead.
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| Posted 10/15/10 2:51 PM |
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curiousO
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Re: Irrational fear
i am happy to see that other people felt somewhat similar. at least i am not 100% nuts yet
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| Posted 10/15/10 2:53 PM |
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ashap215
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Re: Irrational fear
Oh I totally have that same fear. My mom had fertility issues and died of Ovarian Cancer at 56.
Part of me wonders if it's somehow related. 
I know I have the higher risk of cancer because of my mom but now I fear it's even higher because of all the meds.
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| Posted 10/15/10 3:27 PM |
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chattman
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Re: Irrational fear
ditto ashap215
my mom died of breast cancer at age 50, so already in a high risk category, now add all the hormones...can't be good.
on a totally separate note, have you ever considered getting tested for the BRCA gene?
i am thinking after this infertility road is done that I might consider it.
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| Posted 10/15/10 5:04 PM |
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maybemommy10
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Re: Irrational fear
I fear it all...but my biggest fear is never being a mom...so bring on the needlesssssssss ;)
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| Posted 10/15/10 5:33 PM |
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ashap215
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Re: Irrational fear
Posted by chattman
ditto ashap215
my mom died of breast cancer at age 50, so already in a high risk category, now add all the hormones...can't be good.
on a totally separate note, have you ever considered getting tested for the BRCA gene?
i am thinking after this infertility road is done that I might consider it.
My sister had it done and isn't a carrier. I'm on the fence about it. I know I already have the risk and I don't want the I will get cancer thought floating around in my head
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| Posted 10/16/10 6:26 AM |
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BBmaking
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Re: Irrational fear
I have always wondered about what's the side effects that I will get in the future for being on extremely high amount of fertility drugs. It was an internal struggle with myself that i went through for a while until the reality kicked in that the chances for me to get pregnant is probably very low and at this point of my life, I'm willing to try anything to have my own child.
I think it's so easy and normal to feel that way but at the end of the day you just have to know and understand your priorities and do what you are most comfortable with. There are a few RE that actually do Natural IVF or low dose IVF and if you qualify for it, I say give that a shot if you are so concerned about the drugs.
It's definitely not an irrational fear......I've been there too
Good Luck!
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| Posted 10/16/10 9:29 AM |
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