I'm still here - now in 2WW again.(LONG)

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I'm still here - now in 2WW again.(LONG)

Some of you may have noticed that I haven't been posting too often this month. I decided to lay low as last month's disappointment took its toll on my emotions and really gave me a heavy dose of reality. Despite all of the things that we have done to increase our chances of conception, it is still a scientific cr ap shoot based on multiple physiological and biological factors and I am dealing with that.

DH and I just finished our second cycle of artificial insemination and now we are in the dreaded 2 week wait. It su cks. If this month doesn't take (which would be our last chance at a 2007 tax write-off), then we do it one more time. If after that, we aren't successful, then we go to a fertility center and will more than likely do a traditional IUI or whatever they suggest is best for us.

Right now, neither one of us have been diagnosed with any fertility issues. My sonogram showed that my ovaries are in good shape and that I ovulate. 3 sets of blood work have also shown that I ovulate - my progesterone levels are where they need to be when they need to be. DH's sperm count is 3 times what they consider to be normal (he boasts about this) so our issue really is TIMING.

I cant count on my cycle to be the same amount of days each month. It varies from 28-30 days. I ovulated on Day 14 this cycle and day 16 last cycle. Fortunately, this month's insemination was earlier than last month's ONLY because I had to coordinate with the days the doctor was in the office. Even then, the second time, we saw one of the other doctors in the practice. This was a good thing because my doctor no longer delivers babies and we feel we really should acquaint ourselves with the physicians in the practice who do. He was a very gentle and sweet man. We both felt very confident in his competence and should he deliver our first born child, we know we will be in good hands.

This whole thing weighs heavily on my mind, as a woman my age has a 10 percent chance at conception each cycle - the doctors never let me forget that because they don't want my hopes to get up too high - they are right- I understand and appreciate honesty. I need to have all the facts. Information is key to me not losing it entirely.

Last month, I nearly fell apart when the AI didn't work. So I decided to create diversions. I joined a gym and I plan on getting my body into better shape so I can get the weight off after I deliver some day. I will be working with a personal trainer now and throughout a pregnancy when it happens. I feel more at peace this cycle and I think that will help! I highly recommend a physical work out to keep your mind off of TTC. It clears your head and helps you focus.

So that is basically it.To those of you who sent FMs, I thank you. I try to stay hopeful and realistic. It isnt easy.

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Message edited 3/10/2007 12:09:05 PM.

Posted 3/10/07 12:07 PM