Feeling emotionally and physically beat up tonight. I'm the most upset that I've been in 9 months TTC. For the first time, I feel defeated. I know this too shall pass and that when the time is right, I will be blessed. But right now, I wonder WHY?
Thank you all for always reading and being encouraging. I really do appreciate it.
I know how you feel.Last month was my worst month. We are going on cycle 6 but its been 7 months since we started trying. (I have long cycles)
I am finding out that more and more family/friends have been getting PG and its just so sad b/c I didn't think it would be this hard as well.
DH even felt really bad that I was so upset. He just said...its something we cannot control and that is one reason why I am so frustrated b/c we are usually in control of our lives.
DH says getting upset over this is not going to help but I tell him that I cannot control how I feel.
I just had to abruptly leave target, because I passed the baby aisle and thought I was going to fall apart. I NEVER thought I would be THAT woman...and yet here I am after 15+ months of trying running out of a chain store because I can't deal with seeing car seats - UGH. I have sunk to a new low.
It is so frustrating and down right painful sometimes. We all have bad days and we will all get thru them. NO advice just lots of hugs.
I am feeling the same way lately. The last few days have been hard. On Friday a co-worker of mine brought in her baby and everyone looked at me and asked so your next right. I just smiled and said yeah soon. Deep down I just wanted to cry but I just held it together.
My thoughts on my fertility prospects go through mood swings! Some days I feel really optimistic and excited about the idea of being pregnant soon...... while other days I feel down and defeated and convince myself that the day is nowhere in sight...
I'm just so grateful for these boards that keep me sane!!!!!!
Thank you so much for the support ladies. It really is a big help.
Lately, I am just so confused and I think that adds to my disappointment. Since my CP in February, my cycles have been irregular (heavier periods and shorter cycles) and I really don't know why - nothing on the web mentions this. My cycles have gone from 28 days to 25 this cycle. My LP this time was only 12 days. I just don't understand.
We all have a moment when we feel down. However, it will pass and you will be blessed. All it takes is patience! Wishing you tons of patience and baby dust!