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Hofstra26
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UPDATE #2 - Got Beta Back -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
So I think I had mentioned but I did miscarry on my own last week. I bled Monday - Thursday, pretty uneventful thank goodness. I have now been to the RE since the miscarriage THREE times and each time my stupid a$$ hcG is still rising. Ummmm...........annoying. I would've thought by now it would've dropped, it wasn't even that high to begin with. So now we have to wait and wait and wait and wait for the hcG to get to zero before we attempt another IUI. I mean really???...............can I catch a break here???? At this rate between this stupid miscarriage, the waiting, the possible IUI, figuring out IVF if IUI fails I highly doubt at this point I will even be pregnant in 2010. I am just sooooo pi$$ed about the beta results. Enough already! 
UPDATE (9/16/10) - Are you kidding me???? Is this really my life this year???? Can nothing ever be easy???? Went back to the RE this morning and oh guess what????................in my uterus is a gestational sac and yolk sac. Hmmmmm, explains why my hcG keeps goings up but I can't figure out (nor can the RE explain) why I was bleeding last week for 4 days straight. They basically told me it's not viable since my hcG has been low (last check it was 190) but of course now I need to wait and wait and wait and wait until I actually miscarry what's in there otherwise I will need meds to force it to miscarry or worse, a D&C. I mean really......is this really happening to me this year????? What did I ever do in my life to deserve the year I have been having???? I should have my blood results later so we'll see what those say. In the meantime I will wait, and cry, and be miserable.
I am so emotionally done. I've been trying all year to stay hopeful and positive but after this I really am at the end of my rope. I can't take the RE visits anymore, the waiting, the testing, the disappointment. It's becoming abundantly clear to me that my DD was some fluke miracle and I wasn't meant to ever be pregnant again. My DH keeps telling me to hang in there and it will happen but it's so hard and it doesn't feel like we'll ever get good news. Sorry to ramble, I just needed to vent. I am just spent. The only good thing in all of this is it's not ectopic..........at least I caught a little break. 
UPDATE #2 - Got my beta back and my stupid a$$ hcG went up AGAIN but still not enough. On Monday it was 190 and today it was 340. Progesterone is 7.5. It doesn't look good, now we just have to wait around and see. They said sometimes they see things turn around but it's unlikely. I go back Monday morning for another beta and if the levels are still rising but not well we will discuss how to proceed. I hate this $hit!!!........it would've been better to get a BFN than this. It's such a tease and I have to spend every 3 days being disappointed over and over again. It $ucks!
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
My goodness. Im so sorry.
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MrsRitaB
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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curiousO
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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SweetTooth
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
What are they telling you about the reason the hcg is still rising? I would be demanding an answer to this.
I am very sorry you are going through this. Have you requested the recurrent miscarriage panel?
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LoLaBlue
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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keepingsecrets
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
hi, i'm sooo sorry you are going through this. i would demand that they double and triple check that you don't have an ectopic pregnancy. this JUST happened to me in june. i bled and bled after a BFP so they were convinced that i was miscarrying, but my beta would fall and then rise and then rise again and so on. it ended up that i did have an ectopic and by time they found it, i needed emergency surgery and ended up having a tube removed.
i don't want to scare you. it could totally not be the case for you. but i learned a big lesson....always INSIST that doctors rule out ALL possiblities.
if you have any questions, feel free to FM. i hope you get some answers soon
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pickles16
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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FlowerWife
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Posted by keepingsecrets
hi, i'm sooo sorry you are going through this. i would demand that they double and triple check that you don't have an ectopic pregnancy. this JUST happened to me in june. i bled and bled after a BFP so they were convinced that i was miscarrying, but my beta would fall and then rise and then rise again and so on. it ended up that i did have an ectopic and by time they found it, i needed emergency surgery and ended up having a tube removed.
i don't want to scare you. it could totally not be the case for you. but i learned a big lesson....always INSIST that doctors rule out ALL possiblities.
ITA!!!!!!!!!!!!! the first thing i thought when i read this was ectopic.
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SweetTooth
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Posted by FlowerWife
Posted by keepingsecrets
hi, i'm sooo sorry you are going through this. i would demand that they double and triple check that you don't have an ectopic pregnancy. this JUST happened to me in june. i bled and bled after a BFP so they were convinced that i was miscarrying, but my beta would fall and then rise and then rise again and so on. it ended up that i did have an ectopic and by time they found it, i needed emergency surgery and ended up having a tube removed.
i don't want to scare you. it could totally not be the case for you. but i learned a big lesson....always INSIST that doctors rule out ALL possiblities.
ITA!!!!!!!!!!!!! the first thing i thought when i read this was ectopic.
This was my thought too.
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Hofstra26
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Thank you everyone. I am on my way to the RE now so I will ask them. The other day they did do a sono and they didn't see anything out of the ordinary at all, I have no pain whatsoever, and they seemed to indicate that it's normal for hcG to rise a little following the bleeding..............I hope they are right because I don't understand what would be causing it to continually rise. Anyway, I will update later after today's appt. 
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
UGH the waiting game!
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wants-2-b-a-mommy
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Re: Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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Hofstra26
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Bump for Update 9/16
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dajc23
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
 
Are they absolutely sure this is not viable? It seems your LO is fighting to hang on
I know a lot of people bleed heavily in the beginning. Plus your numbers are going up??
Also, I know that in order for their to be a sac your HCG has to be between 1000-1500 and for a sac closer to 7k?? Maybe there was a massive spike and this is it???
Ugh i feel terrible! I'm sorry
I'm praying for good things 
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My4GirlsMyLife
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Could it be a molar pregnancy? I had that and had to have a D&C . Your body thinks it's pregnant so your HCG goes up.
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Hofstra26
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Posted by dajc23
Are they absolutely sure this is not viable? It seems your LO is fighting to hang on
I know a lot of people bleed heavily in the beginning. Plus your numbers are going up??
Also, I know that in order for their to be a sac your HCG has to be between 1000-1500 and for a sac closer to 7k?? Maybe there was a massive spike and this is it???
Ugh i feel terrible! I'm sorry
I'm praying for good things
I honestly don't really know what to think. I guess after I get my blood results back later today they will be able to shed a little more light on what's happening. I don't even want to entertain the possibility of this all being okay because if it isn't I can't handle being disappointed again. I will however not let them give me anything of perform a D&C if my hcG levels are rising until we know for sure this isn't viable. I don't want to be too hasty............just in case.
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Hofstra26
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Posted by My3girlsMylife
Could it be a molar pregnancy? I had that and had to have a D&C . Your body thinks it's pregnant so your HCG goes up.
I don't think so. The RE didn't seem to think it's anything more than a gestational sac and yolk sac which seems to have implanted correctly, looks normal, but isn't developing right as my hcG is so low and slow. Guess we'll see.
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emomma17
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Ugg I am so sorry....I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, hang in there
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My4GirlsMyLife
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
Posted by Hofstra26
Posted by My3girlsMylife
Could it be a molar pregnancy? I had that and had to have a D&C . Your body thinks it's pregnant so your HCG goes up.
I don't think so. The RE didn't seem to think it's anything more than a gestational sac and yolk sac which seems to have implanted correctly, looks normal, but isn't developing right as my hcG is so low and slow. Guess we'll see.
I'm really sorry you are going through this 
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MrsRbk
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
I'm so sorry this is happening.
There is nothing easy about dealing with IF issues, it's just so unfair. Is your RE going to run a recurring miscarriage panel on you?
FM me if you need to talk, as I've BTDT more times then I'd like to remember....
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BabyLoveBug143
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
praying things will start to look up for you!!
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AngnShaun
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
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Daisy32
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
I'm so sorry Kris. Call me later if you feel like talking. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
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hunnybunnyxoxo
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Re: UPDATE - Are u kidding me?????? -- Why oh why can't things EVER be easy?????
ugh!! how emotionally and physically draining! i am so sorry you are going through all of this!!
many prayers for you!!
may i ask why do you not want to have a d&c?
i had one and i have to admit, once i had it done i just felt better. like i could finally move on and try again...
anyhow my thoughts and prayers are with you!
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