To help keep me going...Long LOL

I keep trying to remember to post on the Mommy make-over post, but keep forgetting if it's not right on the top LOL. But for some reason I always remember what posts that I start...not just add to LOL. So, as a bit of a motivational push, I thought I would start up a post... plese feel free to add your personal things, a little smiley face or anything LOL.
I saw a picture of myself as a candid shot and my jaw hit the ground. I KNOW that I have a ton of weight to lose... had to lose it for some time now. I gave birth to my DS 6 months ago, and I think I actually GAINED a few pounds...augh.
As a child I was ALWAYS over-weight. I was 200lbs by 15!! My Mom basically let me have whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. But then I realized that I dind't want to be the fat kid no more... so I went on a crash diet one summer... dropped 50lbs...When shool started no one knew who I was LOL. I knew it wasn't healthy, but I figured I was young I could swing it LOL. I eneded up going down to 135lbs, and stayed there up until 2005, when I was 21, and my Father passed away. Almost instantly, all my weight came RIGHT back. I dind't even realize it. It was bad. Before my wedding I dropped about 25/30lbs, but I was still not where I wanted be.
I got pregnent with DS right after we got married, and I only gained 20lbs, but I feel like I'm still that same weight. And believe me, after seeing myself in that one picture this weekend...augh...made me sick!! I was like, OK, I know I'm overwegith, but seriously, that's just disgusting!! So for the past 3 days, since I saw that pic LOL, I've been back on track...but the problem is STAYING on track. I already eat healthy, it's just when I'm stressed, I tend to just eat MORE of it. Also, I tend to NOT exercise. I will think of jsut about every reason NOT to get my butt off the couch LOL... Like, I didn't get enough sleep last night...DH is a meanie...whatever whatever HA.
Sooo... so far all is well, but I need some motivationt o keep me going. I will be printing out that pic I hate, and weighing myself once a week...sot aht's a help...but I feel talking to someone, even if no one responds to this, may help me LOL. I want to get back to my size 7 Mudd jeans I still have sitting in my closet. They are like HALF the size of me...OY!

So this is my exercise routine now... At 9am I walk (power walk really) with the stroller for 2 miles. My area has HUGE hills...so it's not an easy workout. Then, evey night, at 9pm, I will be doing the 30 day shred. Just sitting around won't make my body any better even if I am eating healthy...
So I guess after all this rambling, is maybe I just need an extra push. DH says he loves me no matter what (sweet of him yes, but annoying HAHA) and just "forgets" to push me.. LOL. My good friends, well they are already size 5 LOL... and they did they weight loss program when I was preggo, so they tend to i guess forget as well LOL. So really its me against myself HAHA. I pop on here just to make sure I"m still following through with it... and if anyone else needs the same thing, then feel free to add. I know I can get to where I want to be.. I'm shotting for my goal to be by Christmas....

Re: To help keep me going...Long LOL

I totally know what you mean. I used to bring my camera EVERYWHERE. But since I put on the weight I don't because I don't want to be in pictures. I hate how I look and I'm working hard to get back to myself. I was there for 5 years so I know I can do it. I did it before!

I'm not going to be that hard on myself this time. I would love to be down to my old size by Christmas, but I don't want to disappoint myself if it takes longer. I know I can get down, it just might take longer than 5 months and I'm okay with that.

Re: To help keep me going...Long LOL

good luck I am doing couch to 5k now. I started with the 30 day shred but I am losing so much more doing c 2 5k 3 days a week and walking on my off days. I saw a pic of myself and couldn't believe it was me.

Re: To help keep me going...Long LOL

It sounds like you have a good plan in mind and a realistic timeframe too. Keep it up, you can do it!!!

Re: To help keep me going...Long LOL

Thanks ladies! So far soo good... I havn't weighed myself, but that's all good LOL. I've been walking each morning still...love it. Then I just jump into our little 8 foot pool with DS to cool down.. down some major house and yard work, then hop in the shower. Each night at 9pm I go down in the basement and do the 30 day shred. I think just as long as I stay active each day and stick to eating healthy I WILL get there. I just can't slack off. A day here, a day there, yes, those WILL happen... but I can't let it be ALLL the time. So, 45lbs in about 4 monhts...? Prolly NOT possible... but my REAL goal is to get as CLOSE as possible to that by then....and just keep on pushing from then as well. I just want to be healthy again...and look healthy again. If not just for me, but also for my son. I want to be here with him for a long long time...

Re: To help keep me going...Long LOL

I can totally relate and I hope that you continue to lose

I had 2 kids in 2 years and 13 month after my 2nd was born I was still the same weight i was preggo except WITHOUT a baby

What really has been working for me is WW. I always thought "if I work out it will go away"--but after WW I really realized how MUCH I was eating and needed to make better choices

what is your diet like? to me this was a big eye opener