Thanks ladies It was a really hard day. I really psyched myself up to get a positive test and when I saw that single line it felt like such a hard slap in the face . As though the D&E ... the burial .. provera... gonal.. etc.. all weren't enough, this was the final confirmation that I am no longer pregnant.
To top it off, 2 people in the last 3 days asked when I am due. I thought I had made the news known to everyone at this point... I guess not.
I really do hate this.
ETA: I am 11dpo and used an FRER. Yes, that's early, but with my last pregnancy I used an FRER and got a great line at 10dpo. Today it was completely stark white. I'm not expecting anything different tomorrow and have already started feeling AF cramps. It's due Tuesday. I am pretty certain I am out at this point.