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I am feeling for you - you have been on a long journey and a very bumpy road with so many ups and downs. It is ok to feel how you feel.

I am going to share what my friend said to me...I keep repeating it in my head. She had issues getting pregnant and holding a pregnancy. Anyway when she finally had her baby boy she said she is just so filled with love for him and he is perfect and she knows he was meant to be her baby. She said it is hard to explain but she looks at him and knows he was meant to be hers. And she actually feels so guilty now for all the crying she did during her miscarriages bc she has such a beautiful son now who is so perfect and she could not have asked for more than that. I cannot wait to have that feeling. You will have it too, hang in there.

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Just sending hugs!

Looking forward to seeing you Friday

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Hope you're feeling a little better today.

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I am so sorry for what you are feeling
I dont really have encouraging words that will make you feel better...You have been through so much, and every emotion that you have is deserved...you are amazing, and somehow you will get through this all

Re: I've experienced enough on this road to know.....

Posted by InShock

Hope you're feeling a little better today.

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Posted by PennyCat

Posted by InShock

Hope you're feeling a little better today.

Thank you again ladies!! Everyone always has such sweet things to say.

I think at this point I just need more time to pass. I guess the first sign you're thinking horribly sad thoughts is the idea that if you post it on a public forum, you might bring other people down and make them depressed

So ..... that's a little disclaimer before you keep reading this post

I feel like this whole baby making experience has become one big sick joke. It's like there are strikes against me getting pregnant ... bad luck keeping me pregnant ... I don't get it.


I feel like the essence of WHY we're on this journey is starting to just lose meaning to me and I'm getting numb.

It all seems to end up the same way .... with me and DH holding each other in a room with a devastating sono in tears.

I've watched family members and friends get pregnant .. have their babies.. all in the time I've been trying and had losses.. and although that's something I know many of you can identify with, I can't help but feel alone in some way. It's taken every essence of my being to witness pregnant bellies .. baby presents.. babies ...... and while a small part of me was still able to be happy for those people, I feel like I'm slowly becoming a bitter, selfish person ... because now when I see these things I can't help but solely feel sorry for myself.

I've never been just as scared of getting pregnant, as not getting pregnant ... because really, the end result is always the same.




Wow, I really hope this didn't turn into those.. why me ..... world is crumbling down on my shoulders.. type posts.

I hope I snap out of this in the next few days .. read this over .. .and because really, I HATE being miserable!!