As much as I have HOPED for a pregnancy...I realized that I haven't PRAYED for it as much as when I was waiting for a heartbeat and when I first lost my baby. I do believe in the power of prayer...so if you ladies could find some room in your prayers for me, I would greatly appreciate it. I'm having a REALLY stressful time of life lately (my hubby got laid off the day after i found out i was pregnant, spotted all throughout and then lost M/C at 9 weeks...hubby still out of work over 3 months later...job is getting more and more stressfull with more and more pressure and I constantly feel like my job is on the line no matter how well i do or how much i improve or try...and I am so burnt out.)
I sat down and tried to write down different career choices with a pros and cons list to try and figure out what it is i want to do with the rest of my life...and the only thing I'm really sure of about my future is that I want to be a mom.
when I was about 12...someone at a school assembly asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up...and other people said "firemen" or "doctor" or "builder" and I said "a mom"...that is still the main focus in my life.
Anyway...I was just hoping yall could spare a prayer for me if ur praying...I don't think I'm strong enough to TTC for a very long time without getting depressed...
