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Hofstra26
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I am so depressed
Another BFN today. I just feel less and less hopeful every day. I feel like DH and I didn't  enough in addition to the IUI..........he was being a PITA! I just want to strangle him lately. I am just so depressed because the thought of another failed cycle, another round of testing and meds, another round of waiting, and so on and so on just makes me want to cry. It's been a horrible year, failed IUI's, the miscarriage, I just can't. I guess I caught lightning in a bottle getting pregnant with my DD.........it was so easy. One IUI, one egg. I just didn't imagine it would be like this TTC #2. On top of that I am 35 so it's not like I have all the time in the world here.
I don't know, I just needed to vent. Honestly, I feel like breaking down and crying because I can't do this anymore. I am so tired of the disappointment. I don't know how people go through this for years with no luck because I am already at my breaking point. I just didn't expect it to be this way. I guess I was naive to think I would get lucky twice. I have anxiety that my poor DD will be an only child. I am so, so sad. Honestly, when AF shows up this weekend which I am sure she will it's going to be a horrible, miserable day. 
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allIwant
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Re: I am so depressed
I am so sorry you are having a rough day today! But know tom you will feel better and everyday after that you will get excited for the next cycle. Cycle 2 worked for me...and the night before my BFP I was literally crying to my DH that it was never going to happen. I know it sucks today but just remember tom will feel better and if this cycle isn't the one for you...the next one can be!!
Good luck and feel better!
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| Posted 7/1/10 7:45 AM |
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angel333
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Re: I am so depressed
Believe me I feel the same way  But the desire to have a baby is so great that I am willing to try everything to get there. Time is our worst enemy, but you really have no choice but to deal with it.... Once AF starts you will feel better because you will start prepping for your next IUI! That brings tons of new hope along with it    
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| Posted 7/1/10 8:02 AM |
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Exarina
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Re: I am so depressed
I'm sorry you are down. It will happen! I know you already have a DD., that may have happened fast but dont give up..this is very normal that its not happening..for you and for all of us...it takes people an average of a year to conceive..why i dont know but it just does.....
Remember that if you give up it REALLY wont happen so keep trying!
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| Posted 7/1/10 8:14 AM |
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RGEC47
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Re: I am so depressed
I am sorry you are feeling down. But don't worry it will happen. We are going on 2 years TTC, and I have lost hope, wanted to give up, etc. But knowing that one day it will happen for us just motivates me to keep trying. You have more belessings to come, don't worry.
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| Posted 7/1/10 8:19 AM |
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ns1011
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Re: I am so depressed
I am so feeling the same way you are right now.
I haven't gone through the IUI's yet but I'm so upset by my BFN this morning too.
To top it off, DH and I got into an argument before I left, basically bc he can't deal with my being so upset all the time. I wouldn't even say goodbye to him before I left.
AF will be visiting me this weekend too. I don't even think I'm going to want to leave the house. I hate myself for being like this too.
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| Posted 7/1/10 8:31 AM |
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VTTG0609
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Re: I am so depressed
I am so sorry you feel this way and that you are going through so much. I never imagined it would be this hard for #2 also. It's hard to stay positive but you have to try. I hope your BFP is near and you can relax today and maybe feel a little different tomorrow.
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| Posted 7/1/10 8:35 AM |
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wants2bamom
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Re: I am so depressed
Im so sorry
I also feel the same way- I am on femara, along with injections, the trigger shot, and back to back IUIs and nothing I feel like its never going to happen and I cant take the stress of TTC anymore....emotionally, Im starting to break down
I hope you find the strength to move on and get that BFP soon!
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| Posted 7/1/10 9:17 AM |
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Hofstra26
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Re: I am so depressed
Thanks everyone! Maybe I will get a miracle this weekend. I guess it's not over till it's over........I just can't help feeling like cr@p today.
Message edited 7/1/2010 9:24:38 AM.
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| Posted 7/1/10 9:24 AM |
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Harlow-J
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Re: I am so depressed
Just wanted to give you some
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| Posted 7/1/10 9:42 AM |
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curiousO
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Re: I am so depressed
aww, Kristen. I am so sorry you are feeling like this today This day shall pass and you will get your answer and will move on. These crappy days happen, just hang on
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| Posted 7/1/10 10:00 AM |
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Re: I am so depressed
just wanted to send you a big . I still hope that this is the cycle for you but if not just sending you good thoughts and .
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| Posted 7/1/10 10:05 AM |
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Shelleybean11
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Re: I am so depressed
You are not out yet! Stay positive! It was still early to test! I'm so sorry that it hasn't come easy for you
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| Posted 7/1/10 10:23 AM |
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Hofstra26
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Re: I am so depressed
Posted by Shelleybean11
You are not out yet! Stay positive! It was still early to test! I'm so sorry that it hasn't come easy for you
Thanks!.....I am trying. You know what it is? I keep comparing everything to my first pregnancy and when things don't feel the same as the first time I start to worry that it's over with. With my DD I had so many symptoms starting at 5DPIUI, I just knew without a doubt I was pregnant, and I got my BFP at 10DPIUI. So now this time around I don't feel so different. I think I am more tired and cranky but that could be coincidence. I guess it's just a matter of waiting and seeing what the weekend brings.
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| Posted 7/1/10 10:55 AM |
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Bridex100
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Re: I am so depressed
You're not out yet! Try to stay hopeful.
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| Posted 7/1/10 10:58 AM |
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FlowerWife
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Re: I am so depressed
step away from the HPT's!! its still early. you're not out yet and theres no sense in being sad over the unknown. you are def not out yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we are all for you!!!
HANG IN THERE!!
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| Posted 7/1/10 11:03 AM |
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Hofstra26
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Re: I am so depressed
Posted by FlowerWife
step away from the HPT's!! its still early. you're not out yet and theres no sense in being sad over the unknown. you are def not out yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we are all for you!!!
HANG IN THERE!!
You're right.........I will step away.  Thanks!!!
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