How is everyone doing?

I thought I would start a post so everyone can either rant or HOPEFULLY share some good news!

I have felt lost this month. We are taking a break, gearing up for IVF. One part of me feels fine and elaxed an enjoying not having to get stabbed by needles or penetrated by a plastic wand. The other part just feels restless. I am about 3/4dpo, temped, but not everyday and had EWCM Wed/Thurs, so that is why I am unsure of O date.

Anyone want to let it out? Hopefully I am not the only crazy one that doesn't know what to do with herself.

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Nope, your not the only crazy one who doesn't know what to do with her self...lol

I have a migraine today because off my apt this morning. I have 3 good follies all on the left side which that tube is completely blocked .

I keep wondering how many failed IUI's do I get before I start thinking about IVF. I'll be 39 in a few months and I want a BFP really freaken soon!!!!!!!


On the brighter side I'm sending tons of
to everyone. We need some good news in March

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Ugh...I am on a break after my chemical, and on the freakin pill, which makes me so angry! I feel like I'm wasting time, and I hate this. I'm still bummed from the chemical, and mad that I can't move forward for a few more weeks.

So yeah, not doing stellar, but trying to keep busy. I'm okay when I'm busy, so you'd think I'd stop checking out this board and keep myself occupied some other way!

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Just doing Ok I guess.

Every free moment my brain gets; which is pretty often.......I start thinking and worrying. My stomach turns into a ball of knots because I know much sooner than later Im going to get that call (or text) that another friend is pregnant. Is this what life has turned into? Afraid of hearing other peoples good news? I so hate feeling like this! Its not ME!

Other than that; guess Im doing just Fan-Freakin-Tastic!

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Under different circumstances, I would say I am happy that I am not alone, but not now. This is something I would not wish on anyone.

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BFN last week after my transfer

no frozen embryos left so we are thinking about doing another fresh. we are meeting with several other doctors to get second opinions.

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12 dp past 3 IUIs this cycle. tested BFN. going for beta tomorrow just to be done with this horrible cycle

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After my last cancelled FET cycle I finally got AF (it was only 5 1/2 WEEKS LATE!!) I spent so much $$ on HPT's.
Now I am finally going for my natural FET cycle, only on CD5 still got a while to go.

Good luck to everyone!!!

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on a break this mo from RE. I have a cyst so we are trying it on our own this month. I am just very frustrated & praying this cyst goes away next cycle so we can start iuis again.

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It's always at this point that I feel good. I am only on CD5, so I feel very little stress at this stage. I do however dislike all pregnant people (unless of course they also had fertility issues) and also feel that if I find out one more person is pregnant I am going to jump out the window!!

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Posted by Jax430

Ugh...I am on a break after my chemical, and on the freakin pill, which makes me so angry! I feel like I'm wasting time, and I hate this. I'm still bummed from the chemical, and mad that I can't move forward for a few more weeks.

So yeah, not doing stellar, but trying to keep busy. I'm okay when I'm busy, so you'd think I'd stop checking out this board and keep myself occupied some other way!

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after 3 losses, DH and I are finally going to start trying (once again) in a week or so. we've been TTC since 09 so this really doesn't feel exciting or even remotely interesting to me. i know that probably sounds bad. i am SO INTERESTED in being a mom but completely uninterested in TTC. i am now on metformin for insulin issues and synthroid for a slow thyroid and Dr. B feels like this will help me achieve a sticky pregnancy. i have faith in him but i guess i'm too tainted to get excited about the prospect of being pregnant just yet. DH keeps saying that when it happens we won't announce our pregnancy until right before the baby is born because of all we've been through

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Posted by curiousO

12 dp past 3 IUIs this cycle. tested BFN. going for beta tomorrow just to be done with this horrible cycle

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I guess I'd have to say I'm treading water. I'm doing what I have to do to get by from day to day until I take my last bcp and finally start IVF Ohh.. and lets not forget taking out my impatience and bad mood out on anyone who will take it from me!

I didn't make an update post, but my IVF cycle is delayed by 2 1/2 weeks so I could use Dr.B's new lab. I told him at the time that I didn't mind waiting to start..... though everyday seriously feels like years and it's putting me so on edge I just want to get on with this already and hopefully it will work and then I can start the waiting game all over........ waiting for the 6wk sono ...... waiting to get out of the 2nd tri ..... waiting to get to the 16wk sono where I got the HORRIBLE news with my last pregnancy.......


I feel like infertility has just become a way of life and I HATE feeling that way I also just found out another family member is having a baby. They got married in August. When I heard she was pregnant I was sort of SHOCKED because it drove home the reality that not all people struggle like we do. They get married.. get pregnant within 3 months of trying... and move on with their lives. I guess for my own sanity I was able to successfully convince myself that THIS is the norm.

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I am in the middle of my first IVF cycle!!!! I am so scared and so nervous. I have been on Lupron. I am going to the RE Thursday for my baseline sono and then starting stims!!!EEEK!!

I heard once you start stims it tends to move pretty quick....of course until the 2ww. I felt like it took forever to get here. I am really hoping and praying this gets me pregnant and keeps me pregnant (I had a miscarriage at 10wks after my fourth iui)!!!!

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I don't even have the energy to post how I feel...

I feel like a crazy person.

I feel like it didn't work even though I know everyone will tell me it's too early. I feel like I'm on the brink of losing my mind.

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Im trying to prepare myself for my 3rd IVF with Dr. B. I went for a consult with him last Thursday and had my mom ask some questions. He said we could have started IVF that day but I was not ready. I have been on a break since December and it is hard to think about going back. Im trying to mentally prepare myself but is that even possible? I told him I would start when I got my next period which will be in about 2 weeks.
Im scared, nervous, worried I love my emotions now and how I feel. The hormones, the needles the driving back and forth, the uncertainty of it all scares me again. Im living my life around the IVF.
Meanwhile my sister-in-law who got married a year ago in April just bought a house, we have a co-op which I love, and told me that her husband wants to start trying to have a baby in August. They were going to wait two years but he is worried that they will end up in our situation. She actually said that is what her husband said. My husband and I are the poster children for Infertility-IVF and it hurts. If she gets pregnant before me I don't know if I can handle it. I know it shouldn't matter but it does.
Im just scared and I want a baby so bad. I put the little boy I sit for down for a nap this morning. He is almost 2 and when I went into check on him sleeping in his crib I was reminded of why Im doing this. He was laying in his crib looking so peaceful and so cute. I want this so bad.

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Posted by keepingsecrets

DH keeps saying that when it happens we won't announce our pregnancy until right before the baby is born because of all we've been through

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Posted by marriedandttc

Posted by keepingsecrets

DH keeps saying that when it happens we won't announce our pregnancy until right before the baby is born because of all we've been through

I feel the same way as your DH. After 2 loses , (one at 14 weeks) I don't want to keep telling people then have to go back and break the news to everyone.

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Honestly... I'm a mess. I'm on much higher doses of meds this IVF cycle and I feel like a crazy person. Somehow I'm able to keep it together at work, but once I come home I let it all out at DH. I don't even remember half the things I say/yell at him... let alone why!
Hoping to find out what day this week's ER is at today's appt

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Just had my 4th miscarriage (very early this time though which I guess is good, I have had 2 in the 2nd trimester). So, I am taking a break for a little bit and then will try again. I am having my good days and bad days, but I think taking a break will hopefully help me.

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Hopefully this post made it easier to let out your emotions. I struggle with talking about it. DH always asks how I am doing, and my answer is "Fine". I know I can talk to him, but I start to feel that IF is ALL we talk about.

I hope and pray that everyone that goes through this (especially my LIF ladies) get their happy ending.

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I'm past the one year mark of TTC for #2. I've watched friends start to TTC after me start having their babies which is hard.

And, I was preggo last summer and m/c at 8.5 weeks. During the 4 weeks that I knew I was preggo I told my friend that was due 7 days before me. She had her baby 1.5 weeks ago so that has been hard. I've met two times and love him so much! I'm so happy for them, but it is a reminder of the fact that my baby was due right about now

This is my first cycle that I'm being treated with meds for unexplained infertility. I do have endo, but the RE doesn't seem to think that is the reason for not O every month or for the m/c. Started Clomid (50mg) last night. Scheduled for u/s on CD12 and will take a HCG trigger shot when they say I'm ready. Thinking IUI as well...

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