had a bad night/now bad day..

and only you girls will understand why lol..

so little backstory..dh likes to call our non existent child little peanut..as in oh i cant wait to take the little peanut to disney or little peanut is going to be a hockey player lol

so yesterday i went to a coulple of stores with a friend and one place we stopped was the gap..

so of course i go to baby gap,cause i like to torture myself,and what do i see..

on sale for 6 bucks a onesie with a peanut on a skateboard that says little peanut

so of course i buy it..show dh he laughs loves it and he leaves for work..

i lay it on bed cause i need to put it with other baby stuff i collected over the past year...and then i just lost it..

cried all night and this morning over this stupid shirt that all i want is to be filled with a actual little peanut

i blame the gap for making it lol..i will now stay forever out of the baby gap


sorry so long just needed to vent..march makes 1 year trying and i think its getting to me

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I hope you get to fill that onesie real soon..

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i had a rough time at target on Saturday!!

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This is going to happen for you. I dont know what else to say b/c there is nothing else. You WILL have your little peanut one day! You are a VERY strong woman, it will happen, I have Faith for you!

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i am so sorry gina.

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I can sort of relate to how you feel. I feel that way when I see things that I wanted or we talked about for the baby we were having. I found out the sex was a girl and now when I walk by baby girls clothing I cry, literally in the store, I just cry. I think what *could* have been, what I feel like *should* have been.

The only thing the both of us can do is have hope for the future. It's hard because lots of times I feel totally hopeless that I'll ever have a baby after having a miscarriage but we have to believe that we'll get what we want. When I get really down I tell myself that if I want to be a mother than I will be a mother and it doesn't matter how or when I get there, but I will. Hang in there

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you will have your lil peanut...

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Aw, Im so sorry Dont worry your little peanut will soon fill that onesie

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I'm so sorry that you're having a tough time. I can understand how you are feeling and have sort of been there myself. Keep the faith. You WILL have your little peanut.

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Im so sorry I know exactly how you feel, i had to go buy a gift at buy buy baby for a baby shower and I almost freakin lost it in the store.

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I know the feeling. I have had a rough couple of days. The end of march will mark 1 year for us also....

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thanks everyone..its justa bunch of things and the fact that dh has had one day off since christmas and i get to see him for bout 20 min a day is not helping

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aww G I'm so sorry. Screw the gap and their peanut shirt. I hope you're feeling a little better now. Call me if you need to vent!

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Be optimistic in the fact that one day you will have a little one to wear that shirt....all good things take time and hopefully your time will be here soon enough

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Gina...thisj ust broke my heart. Like the other girls said, you WILL have your little peanut and it will be the luckiest little peanut out there to have you as a Mommy and Tommy as a daddy. Love you...keep your chin up!

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I'm sorry

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I know it's not easy but just think that one day you WILL be able to use all those things you've collected. And you'll look back on this journey and wish you could have told yourself to be patient... It's hard to remember all the things we have to be grateful for, especially when you dont have the one thing you want so bad....
Good luck this month. I hope you feel better!!!

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Aww so sorry hun! I think we all have our moments and certain things set us off. Ugh it is so hard....