I know how you feel. There is always that tiny glimmer of hope...maybe the HPT was wrong? Maybe my blood will show something? But when you're sitting in that chair waiting for that blood to be drawn, it really all hits you. We've all been there and please understand that you're not alone. Your time will come. You'll be that girl in the office with the big grin on your face because YOU got the good news. Just hang on to the hope...that's what's going to get you through.
Oh I'm so sorry. You will feel a little better in a few days (once the beotch is gone). but, for now just let it all out.
This all sucks. Why can't we just wish for what we want and it happens? But, now when we do all get our BFP's (AND WE ALL WILL IN SOME FORM), lets all remember to be considerate to others in the office where it may not be their time yet.