* because i got sick on CD14 and therefore my temps showed a fake O spike when it was just a virus and now i have no idea whether/when i Oed. temp actually dropped .2 today, which is not that far from my pre-O temps, so i have no idea what's going on.
* didn't get a smiley until CD17, which is late. we started on CD9. we did on the day i got my smiley, but the day after (which i read is the most fertile time) DH was "exhausted" so nothing. not yesterday either, and now i'm freaked out by this morning's temp that we should still be and haven't for the last 2 days.
* this is our 8th month of TTC. i'm so tired of it and just want my BFP!!! totally freaked that we blew this month and it's on to month 9 of stress and and and
on CD9. we did 
so tired of it and just want my BFP!!! totally freaked that we blew this month and it's on to month 9 of stress and 
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