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Hofstra26
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Just thought I would check in.............
.................since I haven't really been posting much lately. So, nothing really to update you on since everything had to come to a crashing halt thanks to our insurance issues. It's been a weird few weeks, I was getting so sick of my RE appts. and hated going but now that I don't have any it feels sorta weird. I don't know what's going on with my body, no clue where I stand with regards to egg growth, AF, ovulation, or anything else. It's very weird to be on our own and I go from not thinking about it and being okay to being really sad and down about all of it.
I just watched Giuliana and Bill (bad idea) and I started crying at the end. I want that excited, happy, BFP feeling again. I want to be pregnant again, to feel the baby kick, to be in the hospital meeting our little one for the first time. I want all of those experiences again so badly and I am terrified I will never have it. It's just strange to be where I am at because I don't know what the future holds for us, I don't know if we'll ever have another baby, I don't know if we'll ever be able to get back to the RE and even if we do...........it maybe be a long while and then I panic because I am 35. I don't know. There is nobody other than DH to talk to because nobody understands and if one more person tells me to "stay positive" or "it will happen" I just might go postal. If only it were that easy to stay positive.
Anyway, I guess we just have to continue on and see what happens and I hope that something changes because going about life and not actively TTC is just surreal to me and to be honest, it flat out $ucks. I've seen a few BFP's on the board lately so congrats to all of you ladies and lots of luck to everyone else............I hope that you get your BFP's soon. Hopefully one day I will get to post some good news here too although I am not hopeful anymore. Thanks to everyone for all the support these past few months, it was appreciated. 
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kelkel09
Love my twins!!!
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Priscilla10
LIF Adolescent
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I'm so sorry for everything that you're going through. We're all here for you to vent whenever you need.
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| Posted 10/14/10 9:43 AM |
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Kris828
Hopeful...
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LoLaBlue
PARTY OF 5
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BabyLoveBug143
Alyssa Rose is here!!!
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Re: Just thought I would check in.............
so sorry for all you are going thru! its just not fair!!
i was watching yesterday on tlc
im pregnant and in jail, and right after that im pregnant and homeless
not that those people dont deserve kids, but i alwasy think why is it so easy for people like that do have kids no problem, but the people who are stable and ready have issue!
life is not fair, but just be soo grateful that you were blessed with your Daughter! some people dont even get that!!
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| Posted 10/14/10 10:04 AM |
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hunnybunnyxoxo
this is what it's all about
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I AM SO SORRY!!!! my heart breaks for you!!!
i remember when i had my m/c i heard a lot of " it wasn't meant to be" "dont worry, you have a healthy child" etc.
you dont want to hear it. you know these things already and it doesnt take the pain away.
people dont know what to say..
anyhow, i am sorry for your pain. i pray you get your miracle!!!
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| Posted 10/14/10 10:15 AM |
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Shelleybean11
Mommy of 2!
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I'm so very sorry. I hope you get a wonderful surprise very soon 
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| Posted 10/14/10 10:18 AM |
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SKPtzu
Oh boys
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couldbtwins
I love you so much!
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Re: Just thought I would check in.............
Sometimes a "break" is exactly what you need, both mentally and physically. We all get so consumed with TTC. And don't let the age things scare you. People are having babies at all ages. And I say that from experience because I am older that you 
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| Posted 10/14/10 11:56 AM |
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babyAin11
LIF Toddler
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Hofstra26
Love to Bake!
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Thank you everyone!!
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| Posted 10/14/10 1:35 PM |
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gina409
TWINS!
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im so sorry u r going through this..we r all here for you
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| Posted 10/14/10 1:50 PM |
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CatNYC123
Happy Thoughts
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Re: Just thought I would check in.............
Posted by BabyLoveBug143
not that those people dont deserve kids, but i alwasy think why is it so easy for people like that do have kids no problem, but the people who are stable and ready have issue!
that frustrates me too!!
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| Posted 10/14/10 3:24 PM |
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mikeswife06
Drama Momma
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| Posted 10/14/10 7:43 PM |
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DaisyGirl
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I am so sorry for what you are going through. I can't believe there is not better IF coverage out there. Stupid insurance companies!
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| Posted 10/14/10 8:15 PM |
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MrsH2009
Thank you St. Gerard!
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Re: Just thought I would check in.............
Posted by DaisyGirl
I am so sorry for what you are going through. I can't believe there is not better IF coverage out there. Stupid insurance companies!
ITA
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| Posted 10/14/10 8:25 PM |
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RocPin
Life's Beachy <3
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Heather
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| Posted 10/14/10 9:02 PM |
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BeachGal
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