really upset and in need of hugs **UPDATE#2**

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really upset and in need of hugs **UPDATE#2**

so. today is CD55.
im not even DPO anymore my higher temps (which were barely higher) only lasted til 11DPO and then went back down so fertility friend now doesnt think I O'ed. and i was never fully convinced anyway.

to make matters worse, today is my 5th straight day of +OPKs. so for whatever reason i have really high LH but no actual O to speak of Chat Icon .

and to add insult to injury i had a dr. appointment today. this dr always has the longest wait ever (im changing docs but decided to keep this appt due to the LH issue). so i called before i went and they said to come in 45 minutes later since they were backed up. i got there and sat for an hour. went in to pee for them. then went back out and waited. then the nurse came out and said the dr. has to go deliver a baby and has to reschedule everyone. i was like the next person on the list... so now i have to go back tomorrow night although they said that i wouldnt have to wait tomorrow... whatever that means... its just further insult to injury.

at this point i just want to cry. i have no one to talk to. we didnt tell anyone we were ttc. i cant talk to DH cause he gets SO upset and disappointed and negative about everything and i cant deal with that. november 1st will be six months since im off BCP and six months of TTC. i know its not that long, but i have only ovulated once in that time frame. i wish i could sue the makers of BCP and my old doctor. i was naive - i didnt know 12 years of bcp would break the natural order of my body.

i just needed someone to listen. if you have read this far, thanks!! pity party over for now.. Chat Icon

**UPDATE**
saw the dr. tonight - i hate doctors. you have to wait forever for them to come in for 4 seconds and you have to try and blab out all 17 of your questions in that time...

anyway so she did a sono that was sooo quick i didnt even get a chance to see the screen. then she looked at my BBT charts and confirmed that I did O last cycle but def not this cycle. prescribed provera and clomid 50mg...

im glad she agreed to give me clomid considering we've only been TTC for 6 months. she said she usually waits longer but since i only had 1 O cycle she wanted to get things moving...

clearly the clomid cycle is unmonitored - she didnt even tell me when to come back, just to take it cd5-9 and keep temping Chat Icon now that i think about it i didnt look at the RX before bringing it to the pharmacy so im not even sure if she prescribed more than one clomid cycle.

so now im debating whether to try and get in to an RE (didnt get to ask her anything about them) or just do the provera clomid cycle and see what happens...

**UPDATE#2**

so i decided to go ahead and call dr. braverman. and let me tell you all....
i am SO SO glad that i did!!
i made an appt and he called me to talk about it already. he seems really great and friendly and attentive. i couldnt believe he actually called me 20 mins after making my appt, just to get some info from me!! i asked him whether i should start the clomid before coming in and i decided i will prob do provera but i will time it so that i can see him at least once before i am supposed to start the clomid.

anyway thanks so much for the advice!!!

Message edited 10/29/2009 9:07:57 PM.

Posted 10/27/09 8:12 PM