well...i survived my first internal - it was not pleasant but over quickly thankfully - i am a fingertip dilated and my doctor said he totally felt baby girls head and that she is low and i should be becoming progressively more uncomfortable in the coming days because of it...it did make me bleed which i wasnt really expecting...i was expecting spotting later today but not like immediately...oh well...

he also scheduled me for an induction next Wed, he said there is no pressure to go through with it and we can decide what we want to do next week if i make it to next week's appointment and see what my cervix is doing, etc...its just better to be in the books for one if i want it then to try and get scheduled for one that day...

I was kinda just nodding and saying okay at the appointment but i dont want to be induced...i really want to go drug free and dont want an extra night in the hospital to have the cervadil, and just want her to come when she is ready, etc... but its nice that the option is there because who knows how i will be feeling in 9 days...