Is there any threads for people to vent when they have had a m/c?

I'm just so besides myself. I have such bad cramps right now bc I am m/c and all I can think of is why? Sometimes I don't know what's worse- ttc and never being pg or getting pg, knowing how that feels and then m/c.

There is this girl I know who has to be one of the meanest, nastiest people - no kidding. This beyoch gets pg and then dosen't have one symptom. I wonder why this mean, self-centered person gets to keep her baby and I don't get to keep any of mine? And the evil things I wish upon her...God help me.

One minute i'm fine with it. I say- OK, now I can lose some weight bc I gained alot with the Fibromyalgia, and it will be easier for me to pack and move when the time comes. I am just overwhelmed with disappointment bc in my heart I truly thought that this one was the one that was going to stick. I really believed it. We all believed it.

Sometimes I feel like this is my punishment bc for my whole life I pretty much said I never wanted kids. I never had a desire until last year. The first two m/c, to be honest, I was a little relieved. I was disappointed but relieved. Then this year all I wanted was a baby. It was all I thought about and all I want and now in the past 5 months i've had 2 m/c. It's not even exciting anymore. I can't even get excited when I find out i'm PG bc we both know in the back of our minds how it could end and all 4 times- it did.

At this point I really want to not have children. I have two younger brothers and they each have 3 kids apiece. I'm supposed to go for testing but I don't know how soon I want to try again. I seriously think I may just wait until next year. I was kind of hoping to have a baby before my 40th bd and the only way that can happen is if I get pg in August. Then the baby will be due in April. ( I think)

I'm just venting and rambling on and thank you for even reading this. I know that everything will be OK. I will have the testing done and get PG by the end of August (I hope) and everything will work itself out. I guess i'm just frustrated. I really do try to look at the positive side of things but once in a while I just feel like..***!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent today!
babydust and sticky dust for all!!!

Thanks

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Somewhere on the TTC board there is a MC thread. I know a lot of women have found the support they need on that thread. If I knew how to search for things, I totally would, but I useless when it comes to that sort of stuff.

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im so sorry you are feeling this way... there is a miscarriage thread, i will bump it for you! its a GREAT support system and we all just vent on there if we are feeling down.

i too had a MC , mine was at 16Weeks just 2 months ago

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ok its bumped!

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Just wanted to send you hugs!!

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You can always vent on here!
All the ladies on here are great listeners!


I'm so sorry you have had 4 losses. That is heartbreaking. Did they test the babies ? were they able to give you any answers ?

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Stay positive honey...but feel free to vent/curse all you want!!!! Thats what we are here for...to listen...and its ok to hate beyotches