Anyone else feel this way?

Today is CD1 and while I am DEVESTATED, I feel better than I did the past 2 days. The constant worry, checking to see if it's here, the anxiety, agonizing over every pain, etc. I cried all night yesterday. Today I got AF and I feel better.

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Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. These two weeks between O and AF are torture. I always feel like even though it's not the answer I WANT, at least it's an answer.

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Yea....I feel the same way. I know this sounds crazy, and I don't expect this to work for everyone....but I have brainwashed myself into getting really excited for CD1 and thinking of it as another opportunity. I know that may sound crazy.....but whenever I get AF, I just think to myself....."This is the first day of a new, fertile cycle....." I know it sounds nuts....but sometimes it helps me to take that frame of mind. There are some months that I am really angry and don't think that way.......but sometimes it helps.

This is CD1 of a new cycle for you. Lots of headed your way!

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Absolutely.

Not this cycle, but the one before I really thought I was PG, and tested. I got a BFN, and was so depressed the whole day. I had two parties to go to, and I was a meep at both.

The next day AF came and sealed the deal that I was not PG. I felt such a weight lifted.

I think the anticipation of it all, and not knowing is the worst part, so when an anwer comes one way or the other, you can't help but feel relieved in a sense.

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me too!!!

and it is cd1 for me too!!

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The day AF arrives I usually feel heartbroken. From the day after AF until around 7DPO I feel so calm & sane. After 7DPO it's constant analyzing of symptoms & just complete insanity. I'm seriously afraid to O this month because I don't want to feel that way again.

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YEah I get that.... I am so anxious so once I get AF I can cry it out and move on. It was a little harder this month but most months I am like that.

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When AF comes try to think of it as new hope - you are starting a new cycle - and this cycle could be it!

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To be honest, during the 2WW I do obsess a little and analyze, but the wait isn't so excruciating other than I just want to know.

I don't get heartbroken when I get BFNs, I just take it as it comes. I think it's mainly that this whole thing is so incredibly surreal. But, I am also extremely pragmatic and I *try* not to get carried away with anything until I have firm proof-- it's not worth the disappointment otherwise.

I do like the time period when I don't have to pee in a cup, spit on a microscope or analyze what comes out of my lady parts. It's a total PITA.

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I usually am a mess on CD1 and then get excited for the new cycle, its sooo up and down its crazy...I honestly feel bd for DH bc he sees me going up and down and probably thinks he married someone with multiple personalities.....