vent....

I'm sorry for the pity party but I need to vent to SOMEONE and I'm sure that some people on this board may empathize.
DH and I have been TTC for 4 months...which I know in the world of TTC is a very short time.
This is the first month when I really thought "this was it"
As of 2 months ago, I stopped testing b/c it was making me so neurotic.....I promised myself that I would wait a full week until AF was overdue. Well, as of today, I was 7 days overdue....and my AF is seldom late.....my cycle is usually a perfect 26-28 days.
I was so sure this was it.....but I just got AF. I am SO UPSET.
I really believed this was it.
I'm so sorry for the pity party, but I can't help but think that at 34 years old, my time is crucial....and perhaps this late period was my body trying to tell me something.
The worst part of this is....and I so hate to even admit this, is that each time one of my friends calls me to tell me they are pregnant (sometimes now with their second) I am secretly angry and envious. I'm happy for them, but after I get off the phone with them, I cry. Up until this point, DH was always making light of it, and being positive about it.....making jokes that it was just another month that we could have fun trying, etc.......but I just called him to tell him what happened and even he sounded dissappointed.
I'm sorry for the pity party....I actually feel better already.

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I can empathize with you. Besides being sad each month, I find that I'm also a little stunned that I could go to all these extremes to get pregnant and end up with AF at the end of the month.

Message edited 7/27/2007 1:03:59 PM.

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I am also going into month 4 of TTC and rapidly approaching 33 so I know how you are feeling in terms of the old biological clock ticking. To be honest, if it doesn't happen for me within the next 3 months I will probalby head to a RE eventhough most doctors say to try for a year if you are under 35. My feeling is that if it doesn't happen with charting, temping, perfectly timed BD, +OPK's, prenatals, herbal supplements, preseed, mucinex, etc. within 6 months, things need to be investigated further.

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I think we all share the same sentiments. :( I feel it is an emotional roller-coaster each month and sometimes question if I can handle the disappointment each time. I will be heading into my 6th month ttc. I actually plan to make an appointment (again) with my obgyn in September to proceed with further testing. I agree with V (Counselor 74) . I feel if were are exhausting all our options and are already in our early thirties, and it STILL isn't happening-then I am going to be aggressive with my obgyn. I feel I want everything ruled out (ie: pcos, blockage, ect.). The only thing I had done so far was a blood test to check thyroid, hormones, etc. It is just reassuring to know I am not alone in my feelings and frustration.

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Im so sorry!!!!! The only advice I have it to drink an ice coffee from starbucks, go out for sushi and have a glass of wine to top it all off. Enjoy these pleasures while they last. Good luck, keep us updated.

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Hi,

Sorry that it didn't work out for you this month. I know EXACTLY how you feel. For whatever reason not being pregnant is that much more disappointing when everyone else around you is. Of my friends 2 have had babies (one just 2 wks. ago) and it was SO easy for them to get pregnant. Of course I am happy for them but inside it saddens me that I've had trouble. Just try to stay positive even though it can be difficult. I keep telling myself that it just hasn't been "my time" yet and now with eating better, losing weight, and getting periods again I feel like this just might be my year. Keep your head up and just keep on trying, your time will come too!! Feel better.

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I totally understand what you are going through. We've been trying for 4 - 5 months, which like you said isn't a long time in the TTC world. And I am a bit older than you. Everytime I am out I see mom's with their babies - beginning to think it's a conspiracy. I am temping every morning, using a fertility monitor, using opk's, timing or bd'ing. I am now 6 DPO and I try to stay away from this board and fertilityfriend.com as they seem to fuel my obsession.

I don't know if it helps but you are definitely not alone.

Good Luck

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Vent away, that's what we're here for! Good luck to you and I hope you get your BFP soon!