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MrsGoldie
<3 Miracles can happen <3
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*UPDATED...Beta today
Thank you everyone!
Beta is today. I have been secretly testing all week. BFN every time. When I went in this morning, all Fran had to do was say "How are you doing today?" and I just lost it. Hoping and praying for some miracle today!!!!! I know, and have heard of women getting bfn on hpt and a positive beta; although I am not hopeful.
I will let you know what happens later this afternoon. I told them to just leave a message on my voice mail. I don't want to get this kind of news at work, so I won't listen to it til I get out at 4.
Hope everyone has a good day!
UPDATE:
Well, the call just confirmed what I sadly already knew...BFN 
I just don't know where to go from here. Transferred 2 healthy embryos, nothing tomfreeze, depleted 401k and savings, no IVF coverage, all testing with me and dh all come back normal, 9 failed IUIs, can't afford adoption, can't afford surrogacy...I'm just lost.
I just want to wake up from this nightmare! So many unfit parents, so many accidental pregnancies, so many children being born into unloving or broken homes, unwanted children being aborted, babies being born with drug addictions...and here we are, loving parents with a loving home and a wonderful family to bring a child into and here I sit just trying to process the voicemail telling me once again that I failed. All I have ever wanted for as long as I can remember is to be a mom. To bring a child into this world to love, cherish, teach, and raise. I can see it in my dreams and its almost real; In my dreams every night I can see my baby, I can smell him/her, I can feel it in my arms. It's like I'm being punished, but for what. I am a good person, I have a good heart, I have devoted my life to helping people...I just don't understand and I can't wrap my head around this. WHY? HOW? My heart is just broken.
I need to take a break and just grieve and recover from this. I wish you all the best, I wish you all good luck with your IUIs and your IVFs, and all my preggo lif friends I wish you a very happy and healthy 9mos. Hopefully I will be back with a new plan and a fresh clean mind.
Thank you for all of your support through all of this.
Message edited 8/19/2013 6:16:45 PM.
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PhyllisNJoe
My Box Is Broken
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Re: Beta today
 For that miracle for you
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PitterPatter11
Baby Boy is Here!
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Re: Beta today
Best of luck!
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TyReseGreen
Lil Prince is here
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Re: Beta today
Try not to worry!
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ShhhTTCin11
3 under 3?!
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Beta today
Praying for you!!
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ggt08
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Beta today
Thinking about you and praying for you!!
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Beta today
Prayers to you.
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babydreams21
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Beta today
I'm really hoping and praying for a positive Beta for you.
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| Posted 8/19/13 9:28 AM |
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APT910
Let It Be
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Re: Beta today
Sending you lots of positive vibes!! 
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JWG421
Our miracle is here
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Re: Beta today
Fingers, toes and everything else crossed for you
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IveGotAFeeling
Always look on the bright side
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Lillies
Grateful for my babies!
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Re: Beta today
Good luck!!!
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Lala08
2 Princesses coming soon!
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Re: Beta today
I am hoping and praying for you!!! I was sure I was out and I wasn't. Don't lose hope!! You deserve this!! I am waiting on pins and needles!!!
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jessnbrian
Only God knows His plan for us
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Beta today
Thinking of you!
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Michelle1110
My family is complete
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Beta today
Hoping you're crying with joy right now! Praying it was bfp
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MrsGoldie
<3 Miracles can happen <3
Member since 9/12 1700 total posts
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*UPDATED...Beta today
Thank you everyone for your support. Updated in original post.
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Michelle1110
My family is complete
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
I have no words of wisdom to offer, just wanted to say how sorry I am.
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TyReseGreen
Lil Prince is here
Member since 8/11 6338 total posts
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
Posted by MrsGoldie
Thank you everyone for your support. Updated in original post.
I am so sorry
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journey22
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
So sorry!
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Lala08
2 Princesses coming soon!
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
I have no words! I am so truly sorry. I thought this was it for you. You will have your miracle baby somehow. Please don't give up on that dream!! You deserve your dream!! Take some time and maybe your answer will just appear. I know we were considering foster care. Is that an option? My heart is breaking for you right now
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ggt08
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*UPDATED...Beta today
;( FM
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PhyllisNJoe
My Box Is Broken
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
I am so very sorry
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MrsB612
LIF Adolescent
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*UPDATED...Beta today
I'm so sorry. Hang in there. One way or another it'll work out.
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babyfever24
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
I'm s sorry I know just how you feel.
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Re: *UPDATED...Beta today
I am so incredibly sorry.
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