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For those that may not know I've been on this IVF journey since April 2011. I've had 4 transfers at NSUH before switching REs and just completed 2 cycles at RSofNY. I just transferred 2 frozen AA hatching blasts on Thursday. I've had cramping since then. Decided to POAS yesterday at 4dp5dt no surprise BFN. I POAS this morning I guess it's a BFN(can't tell seeing lines that are probably not there). I am an emotional mess! As I was driving to work I just broke down and cried! I know it's early but I am at the point where if this doesn't work when I go for beta Saturday I don't know what to do! I still have 10 blasts frozen but I need answers!!

Update

I POAS yesterday on my lunch using answer brand and got a Bfp. I retested this morning same brand and got a BFP. I am 7dp5dt today and just used FRER and got a dark BFP right away! I am nervous and excited at the same time I guess I am still an emotional mess but in a good way! Beta is Saturday!

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I'm so sorry... Try to be positive as it is still early!

This whole IF process is so emotionally draining. I get how you are feeling and have had my fair share of breaking down in tears. We will get there! I promise!!

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I'm so sorry

It is still early though so there's a chance that this is your time! As hard as it is, try to stay positive. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers!!!

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I'm so sorry!!! please try to stay positive. It is still so early!!!!!!

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and I know you have had a long journey! You WILL get your BFP! Praying for you!

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I'm so sorry This whole IF thing is so frustrating, so stressful, and so unfair! To be blunt...it just plain ol sucks
!!! Even though it is so hard, try to stay positive. Try and keep yourself busy and try to keep your mind off of it (I know...almost impossible).

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The crazy thing is previous cycles that did not turn out with BFP I would always look at the next cycle with a positive attitude but today I just broke down!! Maybe it's the progesterone, estrogen, and prednisone I'm on that has me so emotional! I don't know but I will just continue to pray this journey will have a positive outcome soon!! Thanks for all of the prayers and support :)

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You are not out yet, try to stay as positive as you can. I think you are testing a little early still. When is your beta? I know how upsetting it can be, it took me 4 ivfs before I got my take home baby. Stay strong, this journey sucks but you will get to the other side!! I will be praying for you!

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Let it out girlfriend!! We've all been there. I know no words can help, but try to stay positive. Your day will come.
It's still very early to count yourself out just yet. Think of the bright side... You still have 10 blast left. That's AMAZING!! I wish...

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I really think it may be to early then. I didn't have a 5 day transfer but I didn't get my bfp until 12dpo i think. My fingers are crossed for you!

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It's so hard.... and personally.. I hate being told to just stay positive so I won't even go there....... How are you expected to stay positive when time after time leads to disappointment? It's like if every time you go up at bat you strike out, you're not going to suddenly grab the bat and tell yourself you're going to get a home run next time. It's just SO SO SO hard

Having said that.. I do think it's early... and nobody hits a home run until they do. If this isn't the time, it doesn't mean that next time won't be the time, even though it must be so hard to see it that way.

If this isn't it, I think it's definitely time to gather up a consult with your dr to see where he thinks things are going wrong..... maybe line up another opinion .... but something just has to change.


I'm hoping you tested too early which is VERY possible!!

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It is still early. But I agree with other posters, if this isn't it, then it is time to see why it isn't working. I wish you all the best. It is so hard to stay positive.

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Sorry you are dealing with this and hoping you get a BFP this cycle.

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I am really sorry
The good news is that
1 it is still early and
2. Worst case you have frozen blasts.
I agree with pp, before transferring any more of your precious blasts, maybe they can do some brainstorming to see if there is anything else they can try.
One of the studies on my RE's wall was on women who have had 2 or more failed cycles. I can't remember what the protocol was but it was a lot of medical language I didn't understand.

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(1) I have no advice to offer you about the emotions because I am kind of a mess myself after multiple failures. All I can say is I really, really understand and my heart goes out to you

(2) You can still get a BFP even if the HPT has said no because it's early and they're not that sensitive. Try not to sike yourself out.

(3) If you have good eggs, which you clearly do with so many frosties, you need your doctors to do some really investigation and creative thinking about how to address implantation failure. Demand it, and if you don't get it, move on to someone who will.

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I know its super hard to be positive but its still early...also have you considered seeking a 3rd opinion? I was about to consult with SIRM since they deal with immune issues and maybe they can provide more insight

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I am so sorry Like other posters said, it is definitely too early to test.

I can completely understand where you are coming from. 29 months into our TTC journey and we still have not made any progress.

I also agree with a PP that if this round is unsuccessful be sure to be your own advocate. That might require you to be very direct with your RE or it might require you to change clinics. During our journey, I have realized you need to look out for you. It is too easy for them to put you on the same protocol as everyone else and assume you will get the same results.

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Insomnia thanks to taking Prednisone so late! i would like to thank all of you ladies for your kind worlds and support! No matter how crazy my questions are or my emotional break down I can turn to this board! Unless you are going through it (IF) or long time of TTC you just don't get it! to all

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Posted by TyReseGreen

Insomnia thanks to taking Prednisone so late! i would like to thank all of you ladies for your kind worlds and support! No matter how crazy my questions are or my emotional break down I can turn to this board! Unless you are going through it (IF) or long time of TTC you just don't get it! to all

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Posted by TyReseGreen

Insomnia thanks to taking Prednisone so late! i would like to thank all of you ladies for your kind worlds and support! No matter how crazy my questions are or my emotional break down I can turn to this board! Unless you are going through it (IF) or long time of TTC you just don't get it! to all

I was thinking about you last night. Hope you are feeling a little better today!

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I did not get a line (and it was a very very very barely there line at that) until 6dp5dt. Hang in there

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