Maybe I should give up

OK, so DH and I have been trying for about 7 months now. I took Clomid last month. I had my bloodwork done on Monday and the doc called to say that my progesterone level came back "borderline". So he wanted to repeat the test, just in case we are a day or 2 off, so I went in yesterday to have blood drawn again. I'm just waiting for the results. If it comes back low, he said he will raise my dose of Clomid.

The thing is, I've gotten PG twice already without even trying. I do have 1 beautiful, perfect daughter and now I am thinking that maybe I am being selfish. Maybe the plan is for me to only have 1 child. I really feel like I want more, but I'm almost 38 and I'm afraid that maybe I'm pusing Mother Nature too much. If it happened twice already without any trouble, why is it such a problem now? What if I'm going through all of this and there ends up being something wrong, since the "plan" was not for me to have more children?

Sorry for the rambling, but I'm just trying to figure out what to do next.

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Just wanted to give you some

and Please do not give up!!!!

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I have often felt the same way as you. I have dealt with recurrent pregnancy loss. Sometimes I think, maybe this is a sign-I shouldn't have children. Then I realize that that is ridiculous. I have an illness and i am treating it. If I had cancer I would get treatment right? I am on Clomid as well because my Dr discovered monitoring me during a natural cycle that my follicles do not mature correctly, in turn lowering all my other hormones including progesterone. 50 mg worked for me raising my progesterone 14 points from 7 post O to 21.4! You may just need a bigger dose or what about supplementary progesterone?

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I think that if you want another child you should DEFINITELY continue with fertility treatments....

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I agree with the other girls..don't give up..

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Don't give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Remember to enjoy life and the blessings you've been given. Never give up hope!

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Don't give up it will happen!!!

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Sadly, too many of us know that feeling of despair when our fertility or ability to have a child (or a second child) may be in question.

Not a day goes by that I question if it was meant for me to have my own children. Then I want to slap myself silly. It is meant for me to have children. Perhaps my struggles now are here to help me appreciate the gifts the future has for me. The daily ups and downs and backs and forths tear me apart. What I do know is that I need medical and surgical interventions and I have to talk it into myself that these procedures exist so I CAN be a mom. It is very hard not to give up hope. I would be kidding myself if i said I wasnt scared. I am.

What I can say to you is that it IS meant to be for you, it just may not be easy and it stinks BUT you are not alone. We are here for you - most of all DON'T GIVE UP!!!!

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Posted by Goldi0218

Sadly, too many of us know that feeling of despair when our fertility or ability to have a child (or a second child) may be in question.

Not a day goes by that I question if it was meant for me to have my own children. Then I want to slap myself silly. It is meant for me to have children. Perhaps my struggles now are here to help me appreciate the gifts the future has for me. The daily ups and downs and backs and forths tear me apart. What I do know is that I need medical and surgical interventions and I have to talk it into myself that these procedures exist so I CAN be a mom. It is very hard not to give up hope. I would be kidding myself if i said I wasnt scared. I am.

What I can say to you is that it IS meant to be for you, it just may not be easy and it stinks BUT you are not alone. We are here for you - most of all DON'T GIVE UP!!!!

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Don't give up!

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Boy..I felt like I was reading a summary of my past 3 years. I know how you feel. After taking clomid for 1 month, the tests revealed that my progesterone levels did not improve too much as well. So they uped my dose to 100mgs and after many months and a miscarriage-100mgs was it and I went on to have a beautiful little boy.
Try to keep your chin up , maybe all you need is to up the dosage.
Good luck!

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It took one of my bosses 4 years to get preganant the first time, and a her second preganacy was just as difficult.

My other boss is 42 and having her 3 child.

Don't give up ~

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Thanks everybody for the wonderful words of encouragement. My doc called me on Thursday and said he would increase my dose of Clomid. AF came yesterday, so I'll go pick up my prescription today or tomorrow and go back to the drawing board.

I know you're all right -- plenty of people just have difficulty, and it doesn't mean they aren't meant to have a child. I guess I was just feeling down.

So, this will be another good month for DH!!! I think secretly he is enjoying the "trying" phase of this.

Good luck to everybody for this month!

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Posted by newmom

Thanks everybody for the wonderful words of encouragement. My doc called me on Thursday and said he would increase my dose of Clomid. AF came yesterday, so I'll go pick up my prescription today or tomorrow and go back to the drawing board.

I know you're all right -- plenty of people just have difficulty, and it doesn't mean they aren't meant to have a child. I guess I was just feeling down.

So, this will be another good month for DH!!! I think secretly he is enjoying the "trying" phase of this.

Good luck to everybody for this month!