i'm so anxious

i know i'm not the only one out there who feels anxious about TTC. I don't mean to try to elicit sympathy or feel sorry for myself. i just need to get it out there, for my own sake! ahhh!

i'm "older" in my 30's and feel really nervous about not being able to conceive, miscarrying, and the possibility of birth defects. it's so scary. i find that i think of this more than i think of the joy and thrill of having a child. and then reading all the posts about the different methods and everything that i should be doing to increase my fertilitiy stresses me out. is this weird?? i feel like i'm weird. ahhh! trying not to stress out over this because stress is not going to help with anything.

anyway...thanks for letting me vent

Re: i'm so anxious

Totally normal to feel this way! As much as I want a baby I refuse to let it consume my life, I want it to happen when it's supposed to with a little help of course, that's why I track my CM and just count the days of my cycle. I understand what you mean about the anxiety, I feel like that as well, my DH says not to obsess over conceiving and to have fun with it and if it doesn't happen, there are drs out there that can def help.