For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

How did you feel once you started trying again?
I really thought I'd be completely refreshed and energized and happy. Then I met w/ the dr. last week and my spirits fell a little, and then heard that girl's PG announcement at church, then we weren't invited to the family christening (or even told about it) and boom- that's it- I'm totally bummed and not at all optimistic.
I feel like when I was taking the injections and getting sonograms/bloodwork practically every day that it toughened me up- and I got used to it. I was driven.
Now I'm a mush--- I'm so annoyed at myself! Why am I acting like this?

Message edited 3/11/2008 11:53:56 PM.

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

Although this is only our first month TTC with help from RE (after trying on our own for a year), I am already drained emotionally. I know it's hard but stay strong-it will happen!!

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. It's like one thing after another just piling up. Of course it would get to you.

I'm in a very different situation but it's so strange, I was fine for so long but once I started with the IVF talk again, and then started my cycle, all the old feelings started coming through and I hate it. I should be happy. I am, very happy, but it's a lot to deal with.

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

I was initially upset when I had to take my month break, but then I made peace with it and it was nice to have no needles for a month.

I find that I vary in my emotions. The first month, I was a mess the entire time. Doing the shots, doing the IUI, and when AF showed up.

The second month, I was less emotional but there were definitely certain things that made me sad.

It really changes from minute to minute, one second I am convinced that something is going to work and I will get PG and the next second, I try to ready myself for the possibility of never having kids. It's a total emotional roller coaster, so I really believe everything you are feeling is normal. It's a lot to deal with, a lot to handle, plus you are introducing extra female hormones into the equation (not trying to be funny).

Hang in there...we are all here for you!

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

I am on a forced break this month and to be honest I don't feel any less stressed. The truth is that I feel stressed and unhappy when I am going through treatments and I feel stressed and unhappy when I am not. I think there is only one cure for what I got and that's a

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

I always felt like I should have "stayed" on a break..I never felt refreshed

Message edited 3/13/2008 12:04:37 AM.

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

I'm on a break this month, and I feel this incredble sense of serenity and peace. I was talking to my therapist about it, and I think the reason why I get so worked up and anxious during months we're trying with the RE, is because it's always at the forefront of my mind, not by choice, but because I'm in constant communication with the RE, using the CBEFM every morning, taking prenatals, evening primrose oil and mucinex every morning and night, going in for bloodwork and ultrasounds twice a week. Who wouldn't go insane with all of that? It's a constant, 24 hour reminder of the struggle you're going through.

I'm finding that it's just essential to find something else to focus on. In therapy it just kind of dawned on me - yes, I have no choice but to deal with these fertility issues. But it's MY choice, whether conscious or unconscious, to dwell on it, and let my mind wander to negative thoughts. So, now, when I find myself doing that, I make a conscious decision to stop and focus on something else, whether it be work, my house, etc.

It's hard, and hopefully you find some peace in knowing you're not alone

Message edited 3/13/2008 8:38:06 AM.

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

Well as you know I've been on a break since Christmas...and haven't officially started back up. So I can't really help yet! I do know that it's very, very difficult to see it all looming in front of me.

Re: For those of you who've taken breaks TTC...

Taking the break actually felt good and gave me time to think things over.

I truly feel if I didn't take the break I would have kept trying, although even with IVF's it would have been a miracle to ever have a child. Now we are just enjoying life and the what ever happens, happens approach.

I just couldn't do it anymore, it started causing problems with my dh and I and interferring in our life and makes me appreciate my niece and nephew so much more.