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gina409
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did anyone else have a breakdown today
i have been really good at faking my holiday spirit...so far i thought i was doing good
got through the babies on the cards..all the fb status saying next year i will have my baby at christmas..the fact this is the 2nd christmas where baby was one on my list and still we r without one..
i really held it on bc dh is a christmas fanatic and i did not want to ruin anything..
so today we r exchanging gifts and he gives me a box and says don't get upset..just wishful thinking
i open it and it is like 10 onsies..with all cute sayings and sports logos etc..
i just lost it..i think it just built up and exploded..i let it all out for what felt like forever and then i felt so bad bc dh felt bad when all he did was something so nice
ugh..i am just thankful holiday season is over
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stargazerlily
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
I was really preparing myself for the worst. Christmas eve was going to be the DH's family for the first time and there is like a billion kids and one on the way. I got a little choked when I found out that news but I was surprisingly ok. Then this morning we went to DH's again to open gifts with this siblings and their kids. I was surprised again that I was just having a good time. We finished up around 11:30am we packed up our stuff and left for my parents house. We got in the car, put it in reverse and I started hysterically crying.  Guess I was hiding it very well, I even fooled myself.
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| Posted 12/25/11 9:38 PM |
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PennyCat
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
It's not really Christmas that does it for me this time of year... It's my first baby's due date on January 18th. I remember last year I was sooooooo hoping to be pregnant again by his due date. Well, that cycle I had a chemical, and this time around.. well.. ya know..
It never dawned on me that I'd pass his due date a 2nd time around and STILL not be pregnant or have a baby in my arms.
I used to love this time of year. My DH and I met in December.. and it's also the month he proposed to me (obviously not the same year ) .. Then we were due to have our baby around now.. This time of year once had very happy connotations... but I will never forget how I was getting a sono for my latest pregnancy with Christmas music in the background while we received yet another round of devastating news.
As far as being sad this time of year, as you can see... I am right there with ya...
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| Posted 12/25/11 10:00 PM |
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MrsKelly
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
Posted by PennyCat
It's not really Christmas that does it for me this time of year... It's my first baby's due date on January 18th. I remember last year I was sooooooo hoping to be pregnant again by his due date. Well, that cycle I had a chemical, and this time around.. well.. ya know..
It never dawned on me that I'd pass his due date a 2nd time around and STILL not be pregnant or have a baby in my arms.
I used to love this time of year. My DH and I met in December.. and it's also the month he proposed to me (obviously not the same year ) .. Then we were due to have our baby around now.. This time of year once had very happy connotations... but I will never forget how I was getting a sono for my latest pregnancy with Christmas music in the background while we received yet another round of devastating news.
As far as being sad this time of year, as you can see... I am right there with ya...
 
i didn't have a breakdown, but i've been in a horrible mood all week. i feel like such a scrooge, but i can't help it - it feels like christmas has lost the magic it held when i was a kid... and i just want to start a family of my own, to bring it all back. i'm the youngest in my family by a lot - so my nieces and nephew aren't young anymore (11, 15 & 17) - my brother is now separated, my sis never married and dh is an only child - our family seems to be getting smaller and growing apart and i just want a housefull of children so bad  when dh asked me what i wanted for christmas, all i kept saying was "a baby - and if i can't have that, nothing else matters" - i meant it with all my heart. i found 3 rolls of wrapping paper i bought the day after christmas last year, bc i was sure i'd need to wrap presents from 'santa' this year  i will be starting an infertility work-up with the doctor this cycle. thank goodness the holidays are over, i just want to move on with a new year.
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| Posted 12/25/11 10:37 PM |
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
No breakdowns but I hate everyone. I don't want to see 8000 photos of your kids in Christmas Pjs because it's like a slap in the face at this point.
Then I watched a marathon of one born every minute and that show always makes me laugh and cry equally.
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| Posted 12/26/11 1:23 AM |
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bookworm
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
Spending all that time with family (and hosting) was a better distraction than I thought it would be.
BUT..we got DH's cousin a BBB gift card for his family secret Santa and when his wife saw it she said, "Oh Buy Buy Baby, what are you guys trying to say" (I guess it works at a bunch of stores). Anyway, I'm thinking, definitely NOT that and I thought I was going to get all emotion.
But I kept cool. Hopefully it'll be the last holiday where I need to show this kind of restraint and composure.
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| Posted 12/26/11 5:39 AM |
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01ellie
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
Posted by bringonthebaby
No breakdowns but I hate everyone. I don't want to see 8000 photos of your kids in Christmas Pjs because it's like a slap in the face at this point.
Then I watched a marathon of one born every minute and that show always makes me laugh and cry equally.
Christmas eve I watched a few episodes and cried thru all of them! All I kept thinking was when will I get to experience seeing my baby for the first time.
Surprisingly Christmas day wasn't emotional for me....spent the day first by DH's fam and then by my parents house. No babies around and no one asked us about having babies.
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| Posted 12/26/11 9:12 AM |
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maternity1
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
Im there too...
Ive been absent from this board for quite some time and still really cant deal with my infertility issues due to age and PCOS..I cried early in the morning. I came down the stairs...the house was quiet. I read the 12 days of infertility post and at the end just started balling!!
I hosted so I didnt have time to really focus on that. But now that its over...Im right back to where I started! sniff sniff!
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Yes!
Yesterday morning as DH and I opened gift I thought what is the chance of us having a baby next year....and over the fact that my poor nephew's mother ran away from home to be with her boyfriend and is missing everything this 3 year old does!
Yesterday night because a girl I graduated with who got married a year after us is having twins.
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
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| Posted 12/26/11 10:00 AM |
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Posted by 2BirdsofaFeather
Yes!
Yesterday morning as DH and I opened gift I thought what is the chance of us having a baby next year....and over the fact that my poor nephew's mother ran away from home to be with her boyfriend and is missing everything this 3 year old does!
Yesterday night because a girl I graduated with who got married a year after us is having twins.
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
Aw that's terrible that she did t spend Christmas with her son. That's such great Christmas age!
OT, but when you hear twins do you automatically wonder if they did IF treatments? I always wonder although I do know people who have twins naturally.
And OBEM- that show gets me everytime. :( I also get really really choked up when there is a complication or if the baby doesn't cry right away.
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| Posted 12/26/11 12:20 PM |
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KMCGK
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Posted by bringonthebaby
Posted by 2BirdsofaFeather
Yes!
Yesterday morning as DH and I opened gift I thought what is the chance of us having a baby next year....and over the fact that my poor nephew's mother ran away from home to be with her boyfriend and is missing everything this 3 year old does!
Yesterday night because a girl I graduated with who got married a year after us is having twins.
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
Aw that's terrible that she did t spend Christmas with her son. That's such great Christmas age!
OT, but when you hear twins do you automatically wonder if they did IF treatments? I always wonder although I do know people who have twins naturally.
And OBEM- that show gets me everytime. :( I also get really really choked up when there is a complication or if the baby doesn't cry right away.
I automatically thought IUI or IVF! Isn't that bad?!?!? I know 2 older ladies with twins in their 30s...that is it.
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MrsKelly
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
Posted by 2BirdsofaFeather
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
ugh i want mine down too!! just want to forget about this year entirely
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| Posted 12/26/11 3:28 PM |
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JDubs
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Re: did anyone else have a breakdown today
hoping it happens for you soon
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Posted by MrsKelly
Posted by 2BirdsofaFeather
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
ugh i want mine down too!! just want to forget about this year entirely
We are having family over for NYE! I cannot wait to push 2011 out of my life!!!!
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| Posted 12/27/11 5:21 PM |
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Posted by bringonthebaby
Posted by 2BirdsofaFeather
Yes!
Yesterday morning as DH and I opened gift I thought what is the chance of us having a baby next year....and over the fact that my poor nephew's mother ran away from home to be with her boyfriend and is missing everything this 3 year old does!
Yesterday night because a girl I graduated with who got married a year after us is having twins.
Can I take down my Christmas tree now?
Its not bad. A lot of times its true. I can't tell you how many people I talk to and it eventually comes up they had IF issues whether they have twins or not.
Aw that's terrible that she did t spend Christmas with her son. That's such great Christmas age!
OT, but when you hear twins do you automatically wonder if they did IF treatments? I always wonder although I do know people who have twins naturally.
And OBEM- that show gets me everytime. :( I also get really really choked up when there is a complication or if the baby doesn't cry right away.
I automatically thought IUI or IVF! Isn't that bad?!?!? I know 2 older ladies with twins in their 30s...that is it.
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