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CatNYC123
Happy Thoughts
Member since 9/10 1531 total posts
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Cathy
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Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
So I havent been posting much.. mostly because Ive been trying to make other things (aside from TTC) a priority to keep sane and somewhat happy.
I've been doing well and enjoying the child free life. Really thought I turned a corner and tonight I just signed in to FB and saw a post from a not so close friend "its a girl". I swear I havent shed one tear ab not being a mom in a good month (that's a LONG time for me) and I just freakin lost it.
I dont know where it came from. I showed to it DH and he goes oh, theyr pg? and moved on to something else about work... I literally said to him.. is that it??? you're already over it? Im not one to compare myself to others.. Ive learned that my experience is my own and shouldnt be compared to others but I think after almost 2 years Im entitled to say ITS NOT F%$#%$@KN FAIR!!!
We've done everything to prepare-mentally, emotionally, financially, physically.. why do I feel like Im being punished? why is it so freakin difficult to move forward with something that should be so natural?????
I am so angry right now!!   
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Posted 10/28/11 9:35 PM  |
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Jax430
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Member since 5/05 18919 total posts
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Jackie
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
I have been there. You think you're doing well, and then BAM, it hits you...usually on Facebook! Don't beat yourself up for having one of those moments. You have every right to feel angry - it isn't fair! As long as anger isn't consuming your life, let yourself feel it tonight.
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| Posted 10/28/11 9:56 PM |
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LIRascal
drama. daily.
Member since 3/11 7287 total posts
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Michelle
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
These are moments we've all had, and it is NOT freaking fair at all. You're right. It's hard not to compare. Try to have the good moments last a little longer. If you can...
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| Posted 10/28/11 10:03 PM |
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pixiedust
LIF Adolescent
Member since 8/07 553 total posts
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<3
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
Posted by Jax430
I have been there. You think you're doing well, and then BAM, it hits you...usually on Facebook! Don't beat yourself up for having one of those moments. You have every right to feel angry - it isn't fair! As long as anger isn't consuming your life, let yourself feel it tonight.
I agree with this. There are so many people that I know that just recently had children (a few unplanned) that is all I have been seeing on Facebook! It is a VERY challenging thing to go through. On top of the emotions of not having a child yet, I also feel ashamed that I am feeling so mad and jealous at times. I think it is a natural process to go though, as long as it does not get the best of you. I wish you all the best. Thank God for this board  it helps a lot to know your not alone in this 
Message edited 10/28/2011 10:57:23 PM.
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| Posted 10/28/11 10:56 PM |
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cateyemm
Twins!
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
Its like a stab in the gut, I know. I won't tell dh cuz he thinks im crazy for feeling sorry for myself. Youre not alone
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| Posted 10/28/11 11:08 PM |
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MRSadenosine
LIF Adolescent
Member since 9/09 655 total posts
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Tai
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
You are not alone. I feel that way all the time sometimes I get sad, angry or it doesn't effect me when I see fb posts/pics or getting news from family/friends. It is not fair by any means. Yesterday I was at the hair salon and this lady the last time I seen her was year ago, she had 2 kids she could barely take care of with a man who doesn't want her but she just had a baby again. My reaction was anger because why can she get pregnant and I'm having difficulty. I just realize that this is my journey and god will get me pregnant one day some how lol. I try to stay hopeful
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| Posted 10/29/11 9:00 AM |
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wantabuninoven
My angel has a baby brother!
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
As much as I try to not let it affect me it always does. I think to myself. They got married before me. I cry all the time to my DH and tell him its not fair. He comforts me but, I don't think men will ever feel the pain like we do. You are not alone
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| Posted 10/29/11 10:30 AM |
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LoLaBlue
PARTY OF 5
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
you are not alone, we have all been there.
Feel free to vent whenever you need to.
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| Posted 10/29/11 10:53 AM |
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Irishgrl1017
It happened :)
Member since 9/08 1872 total posts
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Colleen
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
I totally have those moments too. It can be really anything that sets me off. Some days I am totally fine and ready to move on...the next day I feel like giving up... Its not fair
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| Posted 10/29/11 11:07 AM |
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LoveBug302
Baby Girl #2 is Here!
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
Im so sorry. I have lost it too. Trying to stay postive but its been really hard these lately. Then today I find out that on one of my best friends is expecting twins. Yes of course I am happy for her but it hurts me sooo badly. Their lives are already perfect and I cant help but wonder why mine cant be. When I found out i just wanted to start hysterical crying. Dh tells me to stop worrying and just shrugs it off. He just says somethings just work out this way in life and there is nothing you can do about it. 
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| Posted 10/29/11 7:03 PM |
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gina409
TWINS!
Member since 12/09 27635 total posts
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g
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
Posted by LoLaBlue
you are not alone, we have all been there.
Feel free to vent whenever you need to.
this! i do it daily
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| Posted 10/30/11 1:33 AM |
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CatNYC123
Happy Thoughts
Member since 9/10 1531 total posts
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Cathy
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
Thanks girls!! You're all right! I let myself lose it Fri night and was over it afterward. I guess sometimes we just have to. Im much better now and am looking forward to enjoying the time we have until a baby comes our way.. because someday it will.
It just amazes me how DH's can look at it so clearly and not letit get t them. I really think they're being strong for us sometimes.
Thanks again girls!!
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| Posted 10/30/11 9:44 AM |
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Kissy331
My two miracles!
Member since 5/06 17826 total posts
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Kristen
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Re: Brace yourselves-I've lost it!
I've been.down that road before we conceived our first DS via IVF. I would watch friends & family members conceive without trying & I would cry trying to figure out why we were being punished. DH would jyst shrug it of
Allow yourself moments to get mad but know your day will come.
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| Posted 10/30/11 12:22 PM |
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