89th update..... so nervous

hi everyone... ty again for all the support.

so my last update was a beta of 8 and prog of 25 on 12 or 13 dpo. (yesterday)

so going for repeat tomorrow am.


okay so this am i did fmu and NO SECOND LINE.

okay so i crawled back into bed at 6 am upset but like ok well um meant to be.

wake up 3 hours later and take another one ( seriously obsessed, can you tell?)

and there IS THE SECOND LINE AGAIN!

so hour later i take a third...okay shoot me i know ...and the second line is there still.

now very very very faint second lines...
not getting darker...but except for this weird phenomonen (sp) of my fmu not working yesterday or today ...the second lines have been there the same faintness and not going away.

so what does this mean?
nothing? something? and what the heck with fmu and me???????

i feel the line should be getting darker...or should i just be happy there is an second line at all?

i have to work full days today tomorrow and sunday. will get results during work tomorrow. what if its bad? how the living heck am i going to hold it together?

i think i am ranting.
but so scared to lose another pregnancy.
so scared.
my hubby would be such a great daddy.
if anyone prays.... please do and if nothing else that i have the strength to continue to ttc if this one is not meant to be...thank you so much xoxoxoxoxo

Re: 89th update..... so nervous

Ugh....you poor thing! A beta of 8 is very low, but there are plenty of people that have them that low and end up with perfectly healthy babies! My adivce to you is stop testing...wait for your next beta. Only then, you will really know what's going on!

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Talk about torture. I am sorry. Try to hold out from POAS until tomorrow's beta. That way you can have a clearer answer instead of the back and forth with the tests.

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BTDT!!!!!I know exactly how you feel. I am so sorry you are going thru this. I would tell you to stop POAS but i know it wouldn't help.

Hope tomorrows beta brings a you a great #.

Sending lots of and your way.

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Re: 89th update..... so nervous

Ugh, you poor thing. Talk about a massive emotional rollercoaster.

Your beta is an 8? Your beta went down then, right? I beleive you posted a beta in the 20's yesterday, right?

Its always good to have hope......but at this point; you will drive yourself crazy with the HPT's, because some will show you with or without a line. Your body can still be detecting HCG and that is probably why some are BFP and some are BFN.

The only thing you can do for a sure answer is........wait! Wait for your next beta. Stop with the HPT's.......they're not accurate as they are bringing you all over the place!

GL!

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praying it will all work out for you

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good luck.
i dont want to give false hope, 8 is very iffy as to what will happen. but for me, when i tested at night after eating and drinking, i got a super super duper dark line. the next morning i tested with FMU and the line was barely darker than the control. both were FRER. so SOMETIMES FMU doesnt work as well as other pee. i dont know why. this is just my experience...

anyway, stop testing!! the sticks are not diagnostic!! at this point nothing will tell you anything except waiting for the beta!!

wishing you TONSSSSSSS of luck and and

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Ty everyone. Btw no about beta was only onit was an 8. And prog was 25 so no dropping beta. Second beta will be tomorrow. I guess all I can do is pray. Ty Alllllllllll

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This is such torture!!! I am this works for you!!!!!!!

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So sorry that you have to go through this! Stay positive. No matter what happens we are here to support you. You will survive this. I think about the amazing father my husband will be too. It will happen! All my thoughts and prayers are go to you!

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sorry to crash, but i'm a former IFer.

FMU was always the lightest line for me.

when i became pregnant with twins after an FET, i tested with FMU and actually threw the test out because it was negative. i tested later with SMU (is that a real acronym?) and it was definitely positive and used the same urine for a FR yes+/no- test and it said yes. AND my beta was 143! I've never trusted FMU or FRERs since!!!

(oh and we later lost a twin in case you're wondering!)

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Still for you!
And stop POASing!

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I don't want to give you false hope. But here is what happened with me.. I started testing on CD 10/11 and got a faint line. very faint. tested with FMU. Then tested at lunch time and another very faint line.
I tested the next 2 days and the line never got any darker.
I also tested with a digital which did say positive. But the FRER lines were never dark and never got darker. They barely even showed in a pic.. soo faint... you had to know what to look for to see them. I also used a blue dye cvs test and that was a faint positive but not as faint as the FRER and I took the FRER's the following days, the blue test I took the first day.

I'm currently 18 weeks along.

I don't know what's going to happen with you, but I pray it's good and this will be it for you.

eta bc i forgot:

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