I think I'm cracking - sorry just need to vent

Not sure what it is but I am having a really hard day today. I have been snapping at DH, extremely crabby and today I have broken down into tears not once but twice! I apologized to DH. Told him I think my hormones are raging and the fact that the FRER was a BFN I think it sent me over the edge. I feel horrible but its like I can't control myself. I was so sure I was going to get a line since I am feeling so hormonal. More than usual at this time. Maybe the pressure is just getting to me? Either way I don't know how to control my feelings. I just want to sleep and cry. So pathetic. Anyone else ever feel like this? I am hoping my BFP is still on its way. I am only day 10 so I know in my head its early but my heart was so disappointed. Wish I could get them on the same page.

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If it makes you feel any better, i was so crabby to my DH a few days before i tested. My DH said, "oh looks like someone's gonna get their period" That comment totally put me over the edge and i broke down and cried because it was our 3rd month ttc and it gets frustrating. (i know 3 months is peanuts to others). I think we all know, no matter how long you ttc, it gets to you, and it's so emotional at the same time. Needless to say, AF never showed, and i got the faintest line at 11dpo.
Oh yeah, i calmed my nerves with a glass of wine!
Don't count yourself out yet!

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Posted by AMLMT1

If it makes you feel any better, i was so crabby to my DH a few days before i tested. My DH said, "oh looks like someone's gonna get their period" That comment totally put me over the edge and i broke down and cried because it was our 3rd month ttc and it gets frustrating. (i know 3 months is peanuts to others). I think we all know, no matter how long you ttc, it gets to you, and it's so emotional at the same time. Needless to say, AF never showed, and i got the faintest line at 11dpo.
Oh yeah, i calmed my nerves with a glass of wine!
Don't count yourself out yet!

I think I'm cracking - sorry just need to vent

The BFNs month after month get to all of us. I wouldn't count yourself out yet either - there's still some time. Last time I got pregnant in Sept, my FRER on 13dpo was still super light, and every day prior to that was a BFN. I was super moody and mean to my husband and couldn't believe it when I saw that 2nd line (after pulling the stick out of the garbage!).

This month I haven't been moody or anything... hope that doesn't mean a BFN :(

I think I'm cracking - sorry just need to vent

Hang in there. This whole process is draining and stressful. It shouldn't have to be this hard. Its still early so don't count yourself out yet.

I think I'm cracking - sorry just need to vent

Please don't count yourself out yet- 10dpiui is still early. Hang in there and test again on Tuesday . Infertility is such an emotionally draining and UGLY disease. You just have to keep thinking about that precious baby you will bring home, and this whole journey is worth it.

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This was me last week. Honestly I had a REALLY bad day and then I started to feel a little better. If you're able- go out with your DH and do something fun that you wouldn't be able to do if/when you're pregnant (bar, sushi, etc.) It helped me to clear my head and prepare myself for the next cycle. I'm still rooting for you!! Good luck!

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Aww thank you so much. I think I am out though. Saw some brown when I went to wipe (TMI). A little crampy today. Hopefully next month will work. A psychic said May so we shall see!!

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I totally understand how you are feeling! You are not alone I had to take a break from the whole thing for a few weeks while I wait for my surg bc I felt I was starting to unravel too. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way, it's not a fun time Everyone says to keep occupied and not think about it, but we all know that's impossible! You are definitely not pathetic, not even a little bit!! Eating, sleeping, and crying is all I've wanted to do too. These feelings are normal...look what we are going through! How could we not have periods like this...it really starts to wear a person down!

I hope you feel better real soon!!!!!

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I'm so sorry you are going through this and think it's totally normal! You are human and have ever right to be feeling this way. The disappointment can get to you. I really hope you are one step closer to your BFP!

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Hugs to all
Its def so hard, i feel like that every month we tried