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prunepie
LIF Adult
Member since 7/06 4357 total posts
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jennifer
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i am so sad...cant stop crying
i tested all day yesterday... 4 bfps...
this was after my first ivf cycle ever...
this morning 2 bfns.... on my way to get beta with dr b.
i just got the call about 6 pm that my beta is 1.7 so pretty much a chemical/early miscarriage.
i feel like sick to my stomach. i dont know whats worse...it not working at all...or knowing it worked for it to be taken away so quickly.
i am going tomorrow moring again for beta cause i dont think my nerves can handle waiting till wednesday.
how am i going to go to work on wed..with everyone knowing i am getting results this week and not cry all over the place? i just have never been in this place before and i feel very alone.
i dont know if i even deserve to be sad bc it was so early to lose it.
thanks for listening and all you support thise past months..
xoxo
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Posted 6/28/10 6:55 PM  |
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Bops
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I am so very sorry 
My first IVF cycle was a chemical and it did give me some comfort to know that I "could" get pregnant...When we are under the care of an RE we know what is happening with our bodies every step of the way unlike TTC'ers that just get AF and never even know that they just had a chemical pregnancy...It isn't fair
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| Posted 6/28/10 7:01 PM |
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angel333
Sigh.....
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry you are going through this
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| Posted 6/28/10 7:04 PM |
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shelby34
Love being a twin mommy!
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I am so sorry 
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| Posted 6/28/10 7:25 PM |
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Athee
I believe in miracles!
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
Im so sorry. I know how you feel... I had a miscarriage very early on as well... (6 weeks), its tough but dont give up! You have to keep going !!! If you need someone to talk to I'm here!!! Just an FM away 
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| Posted 6/28/10 7:26 PM |
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allIwant
Love my crazy life!
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I am so sorry you are going through this! lots of
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| Posted 6/28/10 7:27 PM |
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barbara89
LIF Adolescent
Member since 2/09 601 total posts
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G
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
Oh, sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'm in the same boat. 1 ectopic (IUI), 2 chemicals with my first IVF cycle (1 fresh transfer and 1 FET). It's very sad - cry away, let it out. You'll feel stronger in a few days and you'll somehow wake up and be ready to start another cycle. I'm still on my journey - I've done everything right yet its not working. I wake up every day asking God to grant me the strength to get through this process. We are stronger than we think. Take a nice bath-drink a nice cup of chamomile tea and try to calm yourself... MOST importantly - know that you're not alone.
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| Posted 6/28/10 8:18 PM |
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FlowerWife
Positive Vibrations...
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
i know exactly how you feel and you have every right to be upset
the same thing happened to me in march - i had a chemical with all BFNs and then a beta of 5.. and two days later a beta of 2 and then AF...
then i just had another chemical in may but the beta was much higher - 42 then 46 then 41.. and BFP's on FRERs and digitals... it was a nightmare.
the only good thing that came of the whole situation is that dr. b went on to do a lot of testing and discovered several treatable problems. so hopefully the next time i get a BFP it will be sticky. i wish you the same for your next BFP 
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| Posted 6/28/10 8:29 PM |
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peekaboo
LIF Infant
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
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| Posted 6/28/10 8:52 PM |
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ChiefMT
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
So sorry this happened to you...
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| Posted 6/28/10 8:53 PM |
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prunepie
LIF Adult
Member since 7/06 4357 total posts
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jennifer
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
thank you all so very much 
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| Posted 6/28/10 9:38 PM |
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lbw
I am ONE !!!!!
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry
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| Posted 6/28/10 10:10 PM |
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Daisy32
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
awww I'm so sorry to hear this
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| Posted 6/29/10 9:05 AM |
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KrisClaire
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry. Hugs.
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| Posted 6/29/10 9:06 AM |
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bride07
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry!
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| Posted 6/29/10 9:30 AM |
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blustar214
So in love with my little girl
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. Since I am currently going through my first cycle of IVF, I have no personal experience, but a friend of mine went through 4 cycles (1 IVF and 3 FETs) before getting their BFP, and I know that she had a very hard time with each BFN, almost like an early miscarriage in itself, since you know the eggs were fertilized and are now embryos. I think that it's completely normal to feel the way you do right now.
Good luck to you - I hope that your next cycle is the one!!!!
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| Posted 6/29/10 9:54 AM |
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Diana712
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I am sorry .. I know that disappointment oh so well .. Just dont give up nd jump right back into it if you can.. you will get your miracle ..
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| Posted 6/29/10 10:22 AM |
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maybemommy10
Big Brothers to Be !
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I am so so sorry
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| Posted 6/29/10 10:56 AM |
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immabmommab
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm sorry! Don't give up!
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| Posted 6/29/10 11:42 AM |
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jellybean78
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry
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| Posted 6/29/10 11:47 AM |
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prunepie
LIF Adult
Member since 7/06 4357 total posts
Name:
jennifer
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
i love you guys!!!!!!
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| Posted 6/29/10 12:03 PM |
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PhillyGirl
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
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| Posted 6/29/10 1:38 PM |
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wants2bamom
Praying For A Miracle
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
Im so sorry
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| Posted 6/29/10 1:43 PM |
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babywish10
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
I'm so sorry
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| Posted 6/29/10 3:41 PM |
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curiousO
he is here.. thank you God
Member since 10/07 2344 total posts
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Re: i am so sad...cant stop crying
Posted by prunepie
i tested all day yesterday... 4 bfps...
this was after my first ivf cycle ever...
this morning 2 bfns.... on my way to get beta with dr b.
i just got the call about 6 pm that my beta is 1.7 so pretty much a chemical/early miscarriage.
i feel like sick to my stomach. i dont know whats worse...it not working at all...or knowing it worked for it to be taken away so quickly.
i am going tomorrow moring again for beta cause i dont think my nerves can handle waiting till wednesday.
how am i going to go to work on wed..with everyone knowing i am getting results this week and not cry all over the place? i just have never been in this place before and i feel very alone.
i dont know if i even deserve to be sad bc it was so early to lose it.
thanks for listening and all you support thise past months..
xoxo
I am so sorry. sending you hugs
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