from visiting with my cousin so i coulkd give the baby his gift for his first bday that i missed while i was away.. i got him a ride on toy that hooks up to the tv and shows pictures and plays music and stuff with the movement ; it was an educational toy. it was so cute!!! she also has a 4 year old girl that was my flowergirl; shes getting so big; shes so smart. we were decorating the rooms and putting together firniture because they just moved into a house from an apartment and i was getting so envious watching how cute the kids were and all the excitement, etc. i want to have kids more than ever now and now that it didnt work this month i feel so let down. i know it takes a while, but it just makes u feel bad about yorself sometimes. sorry for rambling, im just a little anxious and down.
it's also a great way to learn the things you will and won't do with your own children... Not a single time goes by when we hang out with Dave's nephews we don't talk about things on the way home - like, wow....she shouldn't have done that...or she should've...etc. At the beginning of the year though - when we were trying - it KILLED me to hang out with them and hear i love you Aunt Jess...etc...because i wanted someone to be saying to me - i love you mommy....ya know???
i can't promise it will get easier - but try to learn from each time you get to spend time with some children/babies....it'll help a TINY bit...
definitely u r so right... im sitting here planning out my month. lol. when to start testing opks and when we will know by , etc.... we should know by christmas. hopefully it is my month.
definitely u r so right... im sitting here planning out my month. lol. when to start testing opks and when we will know by , etc.... we should know by christmas. hopefully it is my month.
we should know by christmas. hopefully it is my month. 
