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leighdvm
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Michele
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With all the BFP's here lately....
Somehow, it makes me even more depressed......Please understand I am not trying to be a jealous, selfish witch, but I can't help feeling like, "why not me?". I'm happy for the girls here who received the good news, I truly am. I can only imagine how happy I'll be when it's my turn (hopefully).
I guess my sad mood is compounded by the fact that I met with my RE this morning to get my new protocol. He told me he's "not optimistic" and that I'm a "poor responder" and have "bad eggs". I wanted to slap him. It kinda depressed me, you know? I said "maybe I shouldn't go through with another IVF then" and he said "I'm not saying it can't happen", blah, blah, blah.
Well, you know what? With all the supplements I'm taking, the yoga, the acupuncture, the special diet.....I will prove him wrong.....
Message edited 5/12/2008 3:43:37 PM.
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MrsRbk
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Michele - I'm right there with you. I'm hoping this trend is contagious!
And this is the BEST possible attitude to have!!! 
Posted by leighdvm
Well, you know what? With all the supplements I'm taking, the yoga, the acupuncture, the special diet.....I will prove him wrong.....
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LeShellem
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
I hear you, but this also gives me hope. I have never seen so many bfp here before and I too hope this trend continues.
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babyfaith
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
I am sure you have already considered this but what about an egg donor.
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BA2008
Need to find some hope!
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
yes yes, prove him wrong. He can only do medical miracles, but we can do our own miracles.
What is your new protocol? Is he doing estrogen with you?
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sweetbabydreams
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
YOU WILL PROVE HIM WRONG!!! My aunt was told the same thing by her doctor because she went into early menopause at 35 and now how 2 twins that just turned a 1 year old and she was 43 when she had them. Positive attitude!!  It is sad to not be apart of the BFP list but it does give you hope and shows that it can happen!!
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Bxgell2
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
My friend was told the same thing, and was told it would be a total waste of money to go through the IUI's, but she pushed forward, went on injectables and got pregnant on her second IUI
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JennyPenny
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Just thought you needed these 
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SweetTooth
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
I totally understand your frustration, Michele. But you have a great attitude!!
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| Posted 5/13/08 9:43 AM |
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leighdvm
My golden boys!
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Thanks, ladies......I wasn't sure how people were going to react, because it may have come off that I wasn't happy for the others.....it's more like I pity me, you know?
And no, I will NOT be considering an egg donor. I'm only 37 and the RE didn't say I couldn't get pregnant. Only when I'm in my mid-40's will I consider it. I still have alot of fertile years left (at least, that's what I tell myself  )
Beth, the RE is having me on the same protocol as my first IVF (Follistim and Ganirelex), with the only change being that I will have HCG (in the muscle) as the trigger, rather than Ovidrel sub-Q. I had about 12-14 follies when I used Follistim the first time, but I didn't have mature eggs. He thinks it MAY have something to do with the trigger.
But like I said before, with all the changes I made, there will be a big difference in how I respond to this cycle. I sound confident, don't I? 
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MrsPornStar
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
I can completely understand. I felt that way, too, when other ladies moved on. Not that I wasn't happy for them but I wanted so badly for it to be me.
You have a wonderful attitude and it will happen!
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Bxgell2
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Posted by leighdvm
Thanks, ladies......I wasn't sure how people were going to react, because it may have come off that I wasn't happy for the others.....it's more like I pity me, you know?
This is a totally normal feeling and reaction - you need to be forgiving of yourself and how you feel.
I talked at length about this with my therapist because in one week I was told of 3 pregnancy announcements from good friends. I was a sobbing mess, which only aggravated my guilt for feeling so horrible.
She said something that really rang true for me - don't feel bad for feeling bad. We worked through why I was jealous and what underlay it was just pure sadness for myself. She said, don't be so hard on yourself becuase jealously is a totally normal, human reaction - it signals to you that there's just something you want SOOO bad for yourself, for one reason or another, that you can't have at that moment.
Anytime I start to feel sad or bad when I hear an announcement, I stop for a moment and recognize that what I'm REALLY feeling is my own yearning to have the same thing, and that's ok. Perfectly ok- it's one of those emotions that makes up the beauty and richness of life
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BigB
C & J are 10!
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
It is perfectly normal to feel this way! Before I had the twins I hated hearing about pregnancy. And what was worse was that I teach in high school and I have students who are ALWAYS pregnant and having abortions!!!!! That used to drive me insane!
I hope you get your BFP soon!!!!!
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babyonthebrain
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Posted by leighdvm
Somehow, it makes me even more depressed......Please understand I am not trying to be a jealous, selfish witch, but I can't help feeling like, "why not me?". I'm happy for the girls here who received the good news, I truly am. I can only imagine how happy I'll be when it's my turn (hopefully).
I guess my sad mood is compounded by the fact that I met with my RE this morning to get my new protocol. He told me he's "not optimistic" and that I'm a "poor responder" and have "bad eggs". I wanted to slap him. It kinda depressed me, you know? I said "maybe I shouldn't go through with another IVF then" and he said "I'm not saying it can't happen", blah, blah, blah.
Well, you know what? With all the supplements I'm taking, the yoga, the acupuncture, the special diet.....I will prove him wrong.....
The best advice I can give you is Doctors are wrong ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!
My 1st cycle TANKED!!!! The next 2 doctors I saw told me it was very unlikely that IVF would work for me!
I am 27 with "premature ovarian failure"
which means my ovaries are 45!!!!!!!
The 2nd cycle I had couldn't even get off the ground my hormones were so out of wack!!!! I had very little hope.
DH and I had already looked into adoption. DO NOT loose hope and DO NOT let any Dr. tell you it's "unlikely" to happen!!!!! You are doing everything right and taking good care of yourself!
It will happen for you it's just a matter of time! Keep your positive thoughts and don't worry about other people bringing you down.
BOTB
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
Posted by leighdvm
Thanks, ladies......I wasn't sure how people were going to react, because it may have come off that I wasn't happy for the others.....it's more like I pity me, you know?
And no, I will NOT be considering an egg donor. I'm only 37 and the RE didn't say I couldn't get pregnant. Only when I'm in my mid-40's will I consider it. I still have alot of fertile years left (at least, that's what I tell myself )
Beth, the RE is having me on the same protocol as my first IVF (Follistim and Ganirelex), with the only change being that I will have HCG (in the muscle) as the trigger, rather than Ovidrel sub-Q. I had about 12-14 follies when I used Follistim the first time, but I didn't have mature eggs. He thinks it MAY have something to do with the trigger.
But like I said before, with all the changes I made, there will be a big difference in how I respond to this cycle. I sound confident, don't I?
Just noticed you were on the Follistim/Ganarelix protocol and wanted to share my experience ...Our 1st IVF cycle we did Foll- Gan- and Menopur...At ER we got 13 eggs, only 4 of those fertilized and only 2 poor embies made it to a 3DT-chemical pg...This cycle we switched to Lupron, Bravelle and Menopur to improve quality and boy, what a difference- 27 at ER, 18 mature and 13fert...We made it to blast and even had some to freeze with a BFP...Both cycles were sub-cu triggers though...Just wanted to share that with you, in case you had the same response I did, and could benefit from the info ...Good Luck
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juju
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Re: With all the BFP's here lately....
I am not sure how many REs you've seenk, but maybe try going to a different RE for another opinion.
Stay Positive!
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