Just reflecting..maybe my body wasn't ready

So quick back story.

February chemical result of a natural BFP.

March started IVF..had 29 eggs of which 19 fertilizied. E2 got really high during stims so I triggered with Lupron. Had 2 5d blasts transferred which result in a low beta of 10..and then a chemical. I chucked it up to an angry uterus due to all the stims and high E2. RPL panel run just in case we had any issues and everything was fine so we proceeded with an FET.

April started prep for our one frozen blast that was left. We did a natural FET. No meds besides progesterone after natural ovulation. My E2 showed that I ovulated however my progesterone remained very low. Even with the suppositories it didn't get higher than 7 until after transfer.

For my first beta which was a 15 my progesterone was only a 7 and my E2 had dropped. I thought when you were pregnant your E2 went up? I even asked the nurse and she said that over 50 was OK. I was not on any estrogen during the FET. My betas rose really nicely and eventually so did my progesterone after switching to PIO but unfortunately we still lost the pregnancy at 6w4d. I am still devastated and am trying to figure out why.

I'm just trying to find answers. I do have a consult with Dr. T in August and I do have pre-diabetes which could have also affected the pregnancy but I can't help but think that maybe we should have taken a break for a month or two before putting our ONE frostie back in. Maybe my body was not ready after all the stims and prior MCs. IDK..just venting I guess.

Just reflecting..maybe my body wasn't ready

Sorry you are dealing with all of this. IF sucks. Hopefully your ONE frostie is all you need. Best of luck!

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Honestly it's just one of those things where you may never know why. Your first beta was low, was that done at 14dpo? .. It's possible it was a chromosomal issue... you just may never know. As for the time off theory? Well, I never used to be a believer in time off doing much of anything besides causing me frustration. I did back to back cycle for YEARS always starting over as soon as I could get my hands on those shots. The longest break I ever took was when we gave my body almost a year off while looking for a surrogate.

To say I felt like I got detoxed is an understatement. I felt AMAZING .......... I lost an instant 10lbs (the weight I gained while going through treatments) and I felt better than I had felt in years. Well .. after nearly one year of no treatments, I go back to give myself a last ditch effort and what do ya know............ my lining COMPLETELY HEALED, something Dr.B said it would probably never do.

I was never a believer in time off, but now I completely am. You just never know .. having said that, don't beat yourself up over it - it could have been anything. The past is behind you and the future hasn't happened yet. You'll get there... Dr.T is great!

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to you. I took a year off too, it helped me mentally prepare for everything we need to do. Since I'm knocking on the door of 39, it's time to shit or get off the pot... but I do my best work under pressure

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i am so sorry you are going through all this

Just reflecting..maybe my body wasn't ready

I am so sorry!!!

Just reflecting..maybe my body wasn't ready

Thanks Ladies. I'm feeling somewhat better today. Trying to focus on losing weight which I should have done before my cycle but with my cycle and progesterone I gained an extra 5 pounds that I didn't need . This whole IF process suckss big time and I hate that anyone of us has to be on this board. Thanks again for the words and hugs