Please hang in there!! I know how much you're hurting and how frustrated you must feel. It really stinks having to go through this but your time will come. I firmly believe that. In the meantime, I am sending you many, many prayers & hugs:
This feeling will pass. I'm sorry you are feeling like this today. I've been there many times myself. I try to force myself not to think like that because it gets me no where. But, I do let myself have a day "to get it all out" and then i try to move on. I tried to create projects for myself (like building closet organizers...I know it sounds anal but I like getting things organized. It did help and so did painting ceramics at my SIL's studio - do anything, I also just paid for guitar lessons b/c I've always wanted to learn. I start in 2 weeks.) We're all here with you. Sending prayers your way for AF to show
I know how you feel...it took me over three years and innumberable procedures to get pregnant with Rogan, only to lose him (two months ago today ). I have no idea sometimes how to go on, what to do or why.
I don't know what was worng- but I'm sorry you were sad and that I don't really understand. I wish I could and I'm glad the girls' here are more understanding of what you have to go through