struggling...vent

Having a really bad day.
Im so freaking tired and just feel horrible but nothing inparticular just all over blaa!
I've been a smoker for years and the day I found out I was prego I knew that was it for smoking. I had been trying to quit for a while and cut down alot but since now I know I cant it seems to be even harder. Ive been doing good esspecially going cold turkey and with my dh still is smoking. He tries not to around me but I can still smell it on him and it stinks!
But now the guilt is killing me I just found a cig and the first thing I did was run out to smoke it! Now I feel even more horrible then I did and Im over emotional to boot!

Im so afriad of all of this and feel like no one around me really gets how I feel right now...I really hope these feelings go away

Re: struggling...vent

Dont beat yourself up over it.. Your trying and thats what counts!! One cigarette wont hurt the baby. Constantly stressing your body out with the guilt of it.. is harmful for the baby. We are only human!!

My mom drank beer and smoked with my sis,bro and I and were all healthy.

Re: struggling...vent

I can't relate b/c I'm not a smoker -

But all of my friends who ARE smokers have had a sporadic (sp?) cigarette during their pregnancies .........
I'm sure a Dr. wouldn't tell you to do that, but I don't think it's something to make yourself sick over. -
Just get back on the wagon and you'll be fine !!

Re: struggling...vent

awww sweetie....breathe!!! all of us goes thru at least a few days where we feel awful...question why the hell this seemed like a good idea at some point.....i PROMISE you it will pass....i cant relate witht he smoking but i am a big soda drinker and have been strugglinng to cease that also....myDr. said all things in moderation..i know that desnt mean cigarettes but as long as your already concerned about your baby and its health you will be an AMAZING parent..

Re: struggling...vent

Listen, I smoked my last cigarettte while waiting for the test to say PG. It sucks not smoking. I still want a cigarette. I stand next to people on the side of the street just to smell it. (Mind you, I hated the smell while I smoked ) I would give my left boob to have one now. My DH on his own quit the next day with me, so it hasnt been to bad. One cigarette here and there is fine. It is a VERY hard habit to break. VERY hard. Good Luck.

Re: struggling...vent

I can relate 100%. I was a smoker until the day I got my BFP, then I quit cold turkey.

I too miss smoking. Honestly, if I was pregnant, I would be downstair right now lighting up. I gave up cold turkey and DH is still smoking (not around me though). I hope I won't go back, but i think I may. The urges are still there.

All I can say is hang in there. I can say that at least not smoking, I do enjoy not coughing or waking up with my gross smokers leftovers (you know what I mean).

I also find I haven't gotten sick (knock on wood) so far. Plus, I've been taking pre-natals (I never took vitamins before) so that too could be helping.

If you have a couple of cigs through your pregnancy, you'll be ok. I haven't given in because I'm compulsive and can't just have one (before my BFP I was a pack a day smoker who drank a couple of beers a week and had about 3 cans of diet pepsi a day!!!).

Man, writing this I want a Marlboro Light 100 ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess I'm heading to the vending machine asap!!

Message edited 12/4/2008 3:43:45 PM.