Sometimes I wonder how much time I would

have in my life if I was not dealing with IF. Am I the only one?

Not that I am giving up, don't get me wrong, but I was talking to my aunt last night and I realized how much time I spend trying to achieve this dream.
How much it consumes my life.

Re: Sometimes I wonder how much time I would

I feel the same exact way and was just thinking about this a little while ago.

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Not to mention how much time I spend on IF chat boards!!

But it is true, I am amazed at how time consuming it all is and how much planning around our IF I do. Like can we guests that weekend or will I be doing an IUI...

I wish I was half as dedicated to doing other things for myself (like going to the gym...)

I only hope that all our efforts pay off in a big way, one of these days!!
(Edited for spelling)




Shawnna

Message edited 1/6/2009 4:18:24 PM.

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I hear ya Patty. I recently said to a couple of my friends (one who gave birth this week and one who gave birth today and one about to give birth in the next 2 weeks)... it AMAZES me that I am still here, basically in the same spot (it feels that way anyway) yet so much time has passed.
People have come here after me, left before me, and gone on to have babies and I'm still here..... yet if I didn't compare myself to them, I'd just be like the worker ant in the tunnel- I wouldn't have realized.
We'll get there-- and someday this will all be gone through for a good reason. I really believe that.

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I couldn't agree more and was just thinking about this today (again) because a close friend of mine just announced her pregnancy...
And then there's us who have had a million and one friends tell them they are pregnant. We watch them go thru the pregnancy, deliver their babies, talk about their babies and how much they've grown, etc.

But one day we will all graduate and we will be celebrating our own!!

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I really believe that we will all be there one day and everything happens for a reason. When we do get there, it will be a better time then it would have been before. It will all fall into place and this only makes is stronger

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I totally agree! I am trying hard to not let IF overtake my life, but some days its just harder than others.

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The worst part about this is that I fear it will never happen for me. I would be much easier if I knew it was definite one day and I had to just wait a little longer than others.

To answer the original question, yes it consumes my life. All my free time and not free time is IF related. All my plans are around it. I wonder what I would be doing with my life had I not had to deal with this every second of everyday, even in my sleep.

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I know I would have a lot more time if I wasn't worrying and researching things on the internetr. Not to mention the all of the doctors I have gone to. This IF thing just $ucks all around

Message edited 1/6/2009 8:11:55 PM.

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yep, here I am again. My calculations

45 min 3x week for 2 weeks for blood/monitoring/talking to doc and IUI

1hr 3x week for acupuncture

15 min. daily to figure out which pill to take and what time.

at least 2 hours a day/night checking my IF email/chat rooms

another hour of internet research for the miracle cure or new technique

1/2 hour of prayer throughout the day. I love God, and he has been so good to me, so I don't mind this too much. He is always hearing from me.

1/2 hour day talking to DH about some new doctor/procedure or conversation I heard in the office (I have no one else but you ladies)

another 1/2 hr a day for the pitty party and tears

I am sure I missed something, but hey, I don't have time to figure it out.

Just think how busy we will all be when the babies come. Whoohoo.

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Sometimes I feel like I can't have a conversation without bringing it up. It is such a part of me now and it consumes my life. Like I work, sleep, eat and battle IF. That's it.

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Even after years of doing this, I still haven't learned how to incorporate it into my life....it is still my focus in life and sometimes I really hate it.