I guess it's the weather- otherwise it's a pills I'm taking, or maybe a combination of both. I feel so down today... I'm having one of those "it's never going to happen" days. I typed a song into youtube that usually cheers me up and puts me in the holiday spirit since I was hoping to do some decorating and christmas cards today, but one of the related videos that came up was a little girl singing the song and I started watching it w/ DH and hearing her parents being so excited in the background (clearly a home video) actually made me start to and I had to turn it off.... Anyone else want to join me in my pity party today....
I'm so there with you. I am so anxious about getting a bfn this time. I have this fear that DH will take it hard like he did the last one and just decide he's happy without kids. He's said that in the past. Like you mentioned about the holidays coming up...it's making me feel worse. I have a week until my beta and I don't know how I'm going to make it.
Thanks guys. Though I wish none of us had to go thru this I do strangely find comfort in knowing that I'm not alone. Christmas is either going to be really great or hopefully will lessen the blow (or not) if I get a BFN --- I think my beta is going to be w/in 2-3 days before Christmas if we get that far and everything looks good to do the transfer.
That was me the past few days Try to reach down deep inside and pull out your strength....we and our doctors are doing everything possible to get us a BFP..the rest is in God's hands
Thanks Jen. I JUST got back from church---- I'm usually so up and positive when I leave there but today I couldn't even focus. I actually took out a notebook and started writing a 'to do' list. My studio open house is on Saturday and I have to go back to my ILs house to set up for it tomorrow into Tuesday and then Tues and Wed I have appointments and Fri I go back for bloodwork and sono and then go back to my ILs, sleep over again and Sat is the open house... so I have 10 million things in my head and I guess it was just too much that I had to get it out. I wote all my to do's down but they're still in my head!!!
I totally feel where you are coming from. I don't think this weather and all the medications help.
I am writing Christmas cards out and all my gifts have already been purchased. No decorations for DH and I though, we are avoiding the holidays as much as possible this year. You just do what you have to do to get through it.
Lately I hate the holidays (past 3 years). That is why DH and I are zipping out of here to sunny warm Florida and Texas for 2 weeks over the holidays. Nothing better then getting outta here and having nothing that reminds you its the holidays. yes, its avoidance but it does work.
Posted by BA2008 Lately I hate the holidays (past 3 years).
See I'm usually great w/ the holidays (though I have my moments). I focus all of my energy on being an aunt and wife and daughter and sister..... and that usually gets me through. I've always been one to love the holidays but this year I'm just not into them yet it seems. I realized earlier this week that I haven't even written out our list of who we buy for or kept tabs on the stuff I've bought throughout the year for anyone... so this is going to be interesting. My complete focus right now is on my FET protocol, my studio open house, a wedding and 2 birthdays we have coming up for family (one of which is my MILs and the other my DH's)--- so I can't even think about Christmas right now.... Though I've been listening to Christmas carols in the car since Thanksgiving and they make me happy for my drives!
My studio open house is on Saturday and I have to go back to my ILs house to set up for it tomorrow into Tuesday and then Tues and Wed I have appointments and Fri I go back for bloodwork and sono and then go back to my ILs, sleep over again and Sat is the open house... so I have 10 million things in my head and I guess it was just too much that I had to get it out. I wote all my to do's down but they're still in my head!!!
I realized earlier this week that I haven't even written out our list of who we buy for or kept tabs on the stuff I've bought throughout the year for anyone... so this is going to be interesting.
