i need your stregnth

i know the typical, "everytime is different" and " think good thoughts" and all that jazz but i just cant.

got my bfp almost a month ago and was succesaful in almost completely blocking it out. last time i was nervouse it would be ecptopic, not sure why, but was worried everyday. turns out i was wrong but had MC anyway.

this time i hace ZERO symptoms. boobs not sore and they are huge and hurt like a B last time. I have no MS at all, and my energy level is way higher than last time.

i tried to block it all out saying worrying wouldnt do anything but yesterday i just got so extremely sad. Like i know i will go to the dr in a week and it will be mad. I just know it. some people "just know" when they are pg, and i just know this will be bad.

i believe I will be strong enough to go thorugh this and a d/c again, i mean i have to... but i dont know that i can handle the aftermath. the testing, wodering if it will ever happen. hating myself everyday.

how do you girls stay so strong and positive. how do you not cry every day?

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Been there... My journey to be pregnant was relatively short but packed with losses. I absolutely felt like it would never happen that no matter what meds i was on to control clotting and immune disorders nothing was going to help me.

You dont really know how much you can take until you cant take it anymore. Before i had my first loss, i said i cant handle having a loss... I handled 5 and IVF. I dont know how much longer i could have lasted...

I was at the point where my sister and my cousin offered to be surrogates for me.

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I have no advice because sadly, I have never gotten a BFP. I just want to offer you tons of
and say that for me, one thing that has helped me continue this journey are the women on here. They have such words of encouragement just when you need it most.

My family, my DH, my friends... they help as well, but these women KNOW what you are going through. They've been there and know the fight. Just reading their kind words can help lift your spirits when you thought it was impossible to feel any better.

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I wish I could offer some advice, but these days I have no stregth.
I had lunch with my parents just the other day asking them the same question. How do I stop being pessimistic and start thinking positive things?! They said to take one day at a time and that's what I am going to try and do. I wish you the best during this emotional rollercoaster!!

i need your stregnth

I am sending you good thoughts !

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In yoga when we are holding a difficult pose, our teacher repeats that we are stronger then we think, that just when you think you can't do it, push yourself a little harder and you will be shocked by what you can endure.

During this journey I often remind myself of this. We are all stronger then we think, if we weren't we wouldn't be on this board.

Hang in there. Try to remain calm until you know there is something to worry about.

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What I lack in strength I make up for with icecream sundaes

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sometimes i did..sometimes it was a bad day..u have to allow urself those days

this is hard,it is tiring and u do not have to deny that

all i can say to u is to give u hope is as someone who struggled for years we had our babies on monday and it was worth it all...every single second of it