Emotionally drained today UGH

Went for my CD3 today. Was feeling a little emotional sitting in the waiting room this time for some reason. As soon as he inserted the probe, there it was...a huge left over cyst! Yep, me too lol. (I was worried I might have to skip the cycle, but I just got the call my levels are normal and to go ahead with the injections.) Then there was fluid in the endometrium (normal though bc I am bleeding). Got my blood done, then I was just sitting waiting for the doctor and I just started crying. I thought to myself...stop crying silly goose, and I held it together. So I went in and spoke with my RE and he asked me if I was ok, clearly not lol. Then I brought up IVF. I'm so emotionally drained after 2 years, 8 IUIs and a D&C. So we decided to go ahead and order all the meds for the IVF. This wil be my last month for IUI and if it is again unsuccessful we are movin on up to IVF.

This really does effect every aspect of ones life! I can't escape from it, it's everywhere I go. Lately I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. I don't want to worry anymore, I don't want to be sad anymore, I don't want to cry anymore, I don't want to be moody anymore, I don't want to be disappointed anymore, and I don't want to be poked and prodded every 3 days anymore. I just want to be me again; happy go lucky loving life me again.

Rant over, just had to let it out lol. I know we all have those days every now and again. Thanks for listening

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Sending you so many I have not been through what you have but I agree that it is so emotionally and physically draining.. and it totally affects all aspects of life. I was in the diner today with DH and was so freaking down. I finally get a good cycle and can't have the IUI so leaving it up to God again.. That is all we can do sometimes.. we can just pray that we are guided in the right direction to bring us our miracles. My Dad always told me everything in life happens for a reason. Every road we take, every twist and turn will get us to where we need to be. IVF may be the route you need to go. I think it is the right route for me also and we are aiming for it in the Fall. All I have to say is keep going.. it's okay to cry and vent and feel down. I think the tears are what keep us sane. I am excited for you that you are already ordering the meds. I can't wait to get to that step to just begin already. You will get your take home baby, hun. We are all rooting for you.

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HUGS back at you

Must be in the air-
I feel excatly the same way
this road is a VERY emotional and Tiring road

Good Luck and one day SOON you will have a BFP :)

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Emotionally drained today UGH

Thank you ladies!

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I sooo know how you feel.
I hope I.get the news tomorrow I can go through one more iui. It seems we are having similar issues lately! If I don't have a cycle I will be right there with you next month with IVF. Vent away! I cry too. You have to let it out somewhere. I too want to be happy again. I was happy this weekend when I was pretending to be a mom to myniece and nephews. Reinforced the want and need to be a mom for me. I believe we will get our take home babies. Just not sure when. Stay strong!!

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It sucks. I know it does. But in the end it is worth it. Hang in there. One step at a time.

Emotionally drained today UGH

From someone who had 4 iuis and 2 rounds of ivf AND is less than 2 weeks from her due date it does get better. It will all be worth it and I promise you will get back to feeling normal, happy and even grateful after. It's all worth it and I would do it all again.

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Emotionally drained today UGH

Its totally normal. This whole process is physically and mentally exhausting. Its so sad that people who want it so bad have such issues. Its hard to be happy when you have IF lurking in the back of your head. Also not easy to deal with most people getting preg so easy. I'm on my 4th IUI and while I really hope IUI works I know that if I get to IVF it will eventually work. Hang in there.

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I feel your pain. I'm always crying nowadays. Lol

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You are not alone. This is cycle 34 for us. We are doing our next fresh cycle at the end of July. I am due to get AF July 24th, but she never seems to appear when we are looking forward to a cycle so I am sure she will be late.

Just met up with my friend today who had a baby girl 4 weeks ago - normally I would think this would put me in a slightly sad mood, but for whatever reason it made me SUPER positive. Hopefully this feeling continues since I am hosting my sister's baby shower on Saturday.

This whole process has also become a lot "easier" since we started sharing our story with people IRL. Not sure if you have shared your stories with others, but having a supportive network has really helped us.

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Thank you so much ladies. I do believe talking to people is therapeutic. I don't hold back lol. We have told everyone that we have been trying. I am fortunate to have a great support system and a couple ladies close to me that have gone through IF. All of our family and close friends know; and I told my boss and coworkers when I started seeing RE. Today was just one of those days when I just couldn't keep it together. I knew you guys knew how I felt

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