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Hi girls.
I posted a few weeks ago about a drs visit-

well... I went to a second doctor and specialist and right away they have concluded that my left ovary is not functioning. Scar tissue is too thick and damaged. There is also scaringon the right ovary *Which they said can be the reason for the massive pain even without the cysts!!)

My PCOS is also back and they are considering putting me baco on metaformin.

I had one laparoscopy electrocauterization treatment two years ago and they are worried to do another.

After being told once that I couldnt have a baby... being told again that it is going to be "even harder now" is making me sick to my stomach.

I did not think that I would have to consider going through all of this again so soon but all three doctors have said the same... that with the pcos...possibilities will lesson throughout time. Which okay, is obvious... but what do I believe?

Mentally I can't handle anyof it right now. I'm not sure if this is goingto make sense... but i am starting to feel as though I should count my blessings with the first from metaformin/lap-elec and not make myself nutsagain...

but another part of me is broken thinking I can't have another...

Sorry I'm still in hiding... no one knows what is going on and I just... don't want to worry anyone right now.

Thank you girls for listening.

Message edited 11/28/2010 2:49:57 AM.

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Just wanted to send some prayers to you and your dh


Everything you're going through must be so difficult; you are always welcome to vent and express yourself here! Hang in there.

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Only you know in your gut whether you want to go through it again. I for one thought that once DS was 6months old, we'd go back to the RE, do what we did before and *poof* I'd be pregnant again. DS is 13 1/2 months, about to start my third IVF cycle and still no sibling

Many people say I should be blessed with our one miricale and that there's nothing wrong with just having one. Sometimes I want to SCREAM, "No, nothing wrong with one, unless you want TWO"

I'm sorry you, me, and all of us here have to go through IF

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I know how you're feeling, we're in the middle of trying again and it's harder for me this time around then it was the first time. With 3 failed cycles behind me ttc #2 (plus 2 years of not preventing) I'm wondering if we should just be thankful for DS and move on from the IF roller coaster.

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