Not in denial anymore, I belong here

I can't believe I'm writing this. I have finally come to terms with the fact that I belong here now. It's been so long and DH and I just kept saying nothing is wrong, it will happen but it hasn't. I finally went to the doctor this week to talk about it and I'm going for testing.
I know I'm just starting out but I'm already filled with so many emotions.

I realized today while driving to work that one reason why I didn't want to face the facts is b/c I feel so alone. DH is incredible. I have one wonderful amazing friend who is supportive but somehow I still feel alone. My Mom is not supportive at all and I don't really want to talk to DH's mom about this.
I feel that no one REALLY understands what's going on unless they are going through it. I've been a long time lurker on this board and I know it's time to start reading AND posting b/c this is probably the best place to get support.

I've read so many of your stories and see how strong you all are. It's truly inspirational. I see how you keep pushing on to reach your dream. I hope your strength and encouragement can rub off on me. Thanks for reading. I really look forward to getting to know everyone.

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I'm sorry that your journey has led you here. It is hard to make the first post and accept that you are dealing with IF. The one silver lining that I can give you is that there is an amazing group of ladies on this board, and having others who know what you're going through makes everything feel so much more "normal," and provides you with perspectives from those who truly understand. We have monthly GTGs. The next one is at my house - please feel free to join us! I hope your stay here is short.

ETA: I just realized that it's not your first post, but it is still a big step to accept that you belong here and start visiting more regularly.

Message edited 6/22/2011 6:15:59 PM.

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Hang in there! I had some issues once i finally saw my RE and i have a beautiful little girl sitting next to me ....this is where your next step begins to have a baby!!! I am so glad i got help....best thing ever....

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I agree with pp. Having to accept and deal with infertility is a hard road. But as jax said there is lots if support on this broad and the ladies here are a special group of women. Finding out if anything is wrng and getting the help you need is a step and the right direction. I know that it's hard to find support in your everyday life. Most people don't understand unless they have been there. But I think I have learned just have strong I really am through this process and I think my experiences will make me a better mother.

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Posted by Jax430



I'm sorry that your journey has led you here. It is hard to make the first post and accept that you are dealing with IF. The one silver lining that I can give you is that there is an amazing group of ladies on this board, and having others who know what you're going through makes everything feel so much more "normal," and provides you with perspectives from those who truly understand. We have monthly GTGs. The next one is at my house - please feel free to join us! I hope your stay here is short.

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I felt the same way when I realized that infertility was going to be a part of our journey. But, the ladies here are BEYOND wondeful. I have met some amazing women who I look forward to seeing every month. Everyone is sooooo supportive and don't forget knowledgable beyond belief.

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Making the decision to see a RE was one of the single hardest things I've ever had to come to terms with. That being said, it was also one of thensingle best decisions I've ever made.

Lots of luck to you!

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Posted by MrsG72907

I felt the same way when I realized that infertility was going to be a part of our journey. But, the ladies here are BEYOND wondeful. I have met some amazing women who I look forward to seeing every month. Everyone is sooooo supportive and don't forget knowledgable beyond belief.

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welcome! i too feel very lonely with this issue even though i have a great dh and a couple understanding friends.

i hope there isnt anything wrong and if there is that its an easy fix.
but if you need to stay here...the girls are absolutely amazzzzzing on this site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! big hugs

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Thank you all so much! You have no idea how much your messages mean to me!

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Re: Not in denial anymore, I belong here

It took me a while to come to terms with IF, for the exact reasons you said. As time went by, the women on here were so open about their stories, supportive and above all else always positive, that I KNEW I was not alone. This whole process is scary, exciting, nerve wracking, consuming and the Ultimate Roller Coaster of Emotion ride, but knowing that you are doing whatever it takes for your LO will be all worth it in the end.

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i know how you feel and im sorry that you have to be part of this "club" - but with that said, seeing a RE will bring back that well needed feeling of control over your situation.

The biggest part of IF for me was lacking control. Once I decided to see the best RE I knew of, I felt like I was controlling the outcome.

Getting all the tests and blodwork will really offer insight into why you are not getting pregnant.

There are so many methods and so much technology out there...the chances of you conceiving are very high.

Just know that you are doing all you can and that this is a step that will bring you closer to holding that little baby.


Im sorry that your Mom is not supprotive- what does that mean - she is not supportive of seeing an RE ?

I felt that the best form of support came though friends that have been through similar situations.

You wont realize it but many people have been on this journey- but they dont talk about it. I encourage you to open up to your friends and even people with kids- and a whole new world of IF support will await you.

God luck to you! I hope your stay here is a short one!!

xo

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Welcome. I'm a new comer, too. The last thing you want to hear when you're trying to have a baby is that something is wrong, that it will take even longer than expected and that it won't be easy. But, in the few short weeks I've been here I've realized that I feel better just knowing I'm doing something about our IF. My husband and I actually both have issues and I'm glad we found out sooner than later. It's a tough journey, but there seems to be a lot of it going through it right now which definitely gives me strength. I hope it gives you the same.

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Welcome! Even though I'm seeing an RE and have been trying for over a year, I'm still kind of shocked that I have to go through these treatments! Maybe it never goes away. In any event, I keep telling myself, once I have a baby I'll be thinking....who cares how I got here?!!!

I hope you find comfort and support here. I know I have!