I thought I handled it well.....

After my negative beta yesterday I really thought I held it together better than almost any cycle, then today came today I got the wash over of sadness and then found out that yet another friend is pg. I'm very happy for them, they totally deserve it and it took them a long time to get pg but as we all know too well it just sucks to always hear about everyone else. So today I cried.....and questioned why why why! But now, I'm moving on and I'm hoping for better things in 2011 for ALL OF US!!!!
Anyone else ever feel like they can't remember a time when ttc wasn't a part of their daily life?! I sometimes have to remind myself that that time did once exist even if it was 2 1/2 years ago and it will again someday

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I really admire your optimism! Today when the ball dropped, I said a very enthusiastic "F YOU" to 2010 and I really do have a good feeling about this year.

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I am so sorry. I am not TTC, but I know it is a long, hard road for some of us. Just wanted to send you hug since I was TTC conceive a while back when you were too.

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Thanks I got sad tonight when I looked at my dh and realized that this is our 3rd Xmas/new year hoping we would be pg or have another dc. My ds saw me crying earlier and must have heard me say to my dh that someone was pg, he looks at me and says mommy why are you crying, bc you are pg? I know how lucky I am to have him but talk about tugging at my heart strings, he asks me when he can have a baby brother or sister most everyone else we know has more than one child. I agree 2011 must be the year for us!!!

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Thanks I got sad tonight when I looked at my dh and realized that this is our 3rd Xmas/new year hoping we would be pg or have another dc. My ds saw me crying earlier and must have heard me say to my dh that someone was pg, he looks at me and says mommy why are you crying, bc you are pg? I know how lucky I am to have him but talk about tugging at my heart strings, he asks me when he can have a baby brother or sister most everyone else we know has more than one child. I agree 2011 must be the year for us!!!

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I totally hear and feel your pain. When the ball dropped there was silence between my husband and I. I felt that we were both just sad that we were ringing in the new year without a baby. We then proceeded to fight all night when he needed time at 2am to play video games and I wanted him to sleep next to me.
I honestly don't remember the time and what it was like when TTC was not a part of my life. Even taking a break is hard because it is all I think about everyday. This is so hard and such an emotional roller coaster. I know what it's like when you have friends constantly getting pregnant and it hurts. I have a facebook friend who is having twins this year. What is wrong with me? Is it cause I don't have a house or a job with benefits and Im nanny? Is it cause I fight with my husband and he does not exercise?
You are not alone and this does suck! You will one day be giving your son brother or a sister maybe both. Glad to hear that Im not alone in feeling this sadness too.

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I'm always pulling for you

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It's hard when others get PG. I know exactly what you mean about being happy for them but sad at the same time. You have a great attitude! I hope 2011 brings you much better things!

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It definitely s u c k s, especially when the sadness just sneaks up on you. At midnight DH hugged and cried, and also said that 2011 will be better, and this will be our last new years without a LO.

This process consumes you, no matter how much you don't want it too. 2011 HAS to better, and next year we will all ring in the new year either preg or with a new born. I have faith.

Hope you feel better.

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Sometimes you will feel better after you let it all out. I know how hard it is to hear someone close to you is pregnant and we constantly ask ourselves why does this happen to us. What did we do wrong in life. I hope you have a little miracle in 2011.