MamaLeen
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Member since 10/09 4594 total posts
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Going through a nightmare...
Just posted this in relationships, did not even see this board but I KNOW you guys will understand:
I am so upset with my parents it is unreal.
We had a "family" dog Millie, who I literally grew up with, we were inseparable. She was a second dog added to the family so everyone else always preferred the original.
Anyway the first dog passed away about 5 years ago and Millie started to get allergies (mostly skin). She was always scratching, it got so bad that she had to have one of her eardrums removed. Since then she seemed better but needed to get medicine once a day and she can only have special food, if you gave her anything else she would get sick. I think this happening made everyone like her even less, not me, she was amazing and some dogs take extra care. My parents did not keep up with the daily regimen so it caused relapses of sever skin allergies and having to go to vet. I wanted to take her but am not allowed to have dogs in my apartment so she stays at parents house and I visit or take her to dog park sometimes. I am always on their case about her care and reminding them what they have to do or I would take her to vet if necessary. She was perfectly fine otherwise and so sweet and smart.
Fast forward to present ( I am 6 months preggo) and this past Saturday my Mom calls me at 9am saying that Millie is doing really bad and they are taking her to the vet, she may need to be put down. Obviously I FREAK out and am crying, convulsing and literally throwing up!! *** are they talking about??? I just saw her last week and she was itching but fine? I tried begging and pleading with them that there has to be something else they can do..my Dad gets defensive and hangs up on me. I didn't go to vet b/c I thought maybe my Mom was overreacting. I called my sister at 10am to see whats going on, she says (they called her not me) they put her down b/c of kidney and lung failure (which truth be told, I/and my sister don't believe them, I am too afraid to call vet to confirm b/c I might faint if its not true) . In 1 hour she is just gone like that!!
Now, they have mentioned in the past that she is a lot to handle and seems to be getting worse, etc. NEVER was I told in the near past that they might be putting her down. I think they had this planned together and were going to tell me after but my Mom felt bad at the last minute and told me.
I have been hysterical since yesterday, I feel horrible. I wanted to be with her, she would have wanted me there b/c she was most close with me. If she had to be put down I do believe it was their choice since they are the owners but I am way more upset about HOW it happened. I am sick to my stomach about it, I can't think of anything else and just feel like this was a sick ending to her life. I haven't spoken to my parents since, it is unbelievable. I talked to my Brother at 4 yesterday (sat) and they didn't even tell him!! He said they mentioned 2 weeks ago they were considering it. They did not mention this to my sister or I.
I don't know since I am pregnant if they were trying to not tell me b/c they knew I would freak out about losing her? But this is soo much harder and worse to deal with. If I had been prepared I could have seen her and said goodbye Chat Icon
When my first dog was put down she was very old and sick and it was a family decision, we all went with her and it was very peaceful.
I don't even know what to do, I mean there is nothing I can do. I feel like I have been beat up and I look like it too after being hysterical for 2 days... I cant talk to them, I feel like I will never forgive them for this. I have lost a lot of respect for them, it would have been hard to break the news to me earlier but that's the adult thing to do.
I know to some its just a dog but to me this was literally like my best friend Chat Icon Chat Icon I am crying right now writing this I just miss her so much. It is so surreal and feels like a nightmare. Who does that????? I don't even want to confront them or discuss it ever again, b/c it is over, they made the final decision and a life is gone and will never come back.
Where do I go from here??
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