I am really, really trying to stay positive and in a good place overall - I've been doing really well. But little things keep happened (another friend PG, having to visit a friend w/ her baby (which thankfully got cancelled), and just the usual, difficult 2ww. AF is due sometime between now and Sat. - Sat. is DH's bday and I can't help but think how awesome a bday present it would be for him. I was going to test Fri. and I'm freaking out. I don't know that I can face another BFN on a stick. You know that feeling when AF arrives, when the hope for that cycle is gone - at least at the beginning of the 2ww you can be hopeful. Its taken every ounce of strength I've had this past month and I'm just tired, really tired. I'm also unemployed and so I'm home all day by myself, which doesn't help. I know this is long, thanks for reading if you have - today is just one of those harder days when I just need to be tired and sad and scared. And the rollercoaster continues.
