| Posted By |
Message |
MrsMessina
Thankful for our miracles!
Member since 2/07 7254 total posts
Name:
|
Wednesday- back from office...
Today they were so much nicer. I got the same woman and she was completely sympathetic and understanding. She asked me how I was doing and I told her I'd let her know this afternoon.
She told me she's seen pregnancies start out lower than mine and go on to be perfectly healthy pregnancies that have perfectly healthy children... but she also told me 'what will be will be- and you can't do anything about it'... and I know that- there's no way for me to change anything and right now I'm just trying to come to grips with the fact that this isn't anything that I've done wrong- though I feel like in some way it must be. 
Then I saw another nurse on my way out who asked me how I was also. I gave her the same answer and added that my betas were extremely low, to which she responded that she knew.... she had only seen one but told me she was hoping for me- and that we'd see what today brings... I told her what my 2nd beta was and she just smiled.  She added that she too had seen lower betas be healthy pregnancies, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up.
Those 4 days of BFPs before the beta killed me. I became SO attached to this little one growing inside of me- who to us is already ours.  The thought of them not making it is killing me, and I'm not sure how I'm going to pick myself up and move on.... so many of you have given me strength, but today I just feel like I'm a mess. Let's see what this afternoon brings....
DH asked me to call him at work and tell him what they said but I don't know that I will. I told him there's no 'good' news right now either way- either it's too low, or lower- in which case I'm devastated but it's almost over (I think)..... or it continues to rise and the torture of 'is this going to become a viable pregnancy or not' continues... Why can't things just be easy for once?????  Sorry for the long vent- I just needed to get that out.
Message edited 8/13/2008 12:16:58 PM.
|
Posted 8/13/08 12:15 PM  |
| |
|
Long Island Weddings
Long Island's Largest Bridal Resource |
Donna
1 year already!!
Member since 5/05 3360 total posts
Name:
Donna
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Shannon, I'm sorry!
It really is so hard to be in limbo like you are - I really hope you get your answers soon and then can move on one way or the other.
I'm glad the nurses were nicer this time
|
| Posted 8/13/08 12:18 PM |
| |
|
Gertyrae
Peace out Homies!
Member since 5/05 20046 total posts
Name:
Gerty ®
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
You poor thing...I don't know what to tell you.
Hopefully, it works out to be a viable pregnancy but at least you are being realistic about it.
If it comes to a negative resolution, you will at least be able to cry it out and move forward. The hardest part is being in limbo every day.
You will get through this one way or the other.
|
| Posted 8/13/08 12:19 PM |
| |
|
IrishLasss334
I'll be there soon!
Member since 1/08 6549 total posts
Name:
Patty
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Shannon, I am so sorry you are going through this, it is awful, I know. I pray it all works out for you.
You are a strong person, you have gotten this far, so many people would have given up and not gone through IVF and all that comes with it. You will make it through, whatever the outcome is today from the blood test. 
|
| Posted 8/13/08 12:25 PM |
| |
|
MrsJoeG
Beyond Blessed <3
Member since 2/08 1482 total posts
Name:
Amanda
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
I am sorry Shannon. I cannot imagine what you are goig through right now. I am praying for you so hard!!
|
| Posted 8/13/08 1:11 PM |
| |
|
Domino
Always My Miracle
Member since 9/05 9924 total posts
Name:
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
I'm still praying for you
And praying that you get out of limbo quickly. The only thing worse than knowing is NOT knowing.
|
| Posted 8/13/08 1:18 PM |
| |
|
BA2008
Need to find some hope!
Member since 2/08 2485 total posts
Name:
Beth -Ann
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Oh I was thinking of you before, when I realized it was Wed. I have seen a post on FF where it turned into a viable one, where the beta started at 13. Either way you will be OK. You are stronger than you know. Keeping all my prayers for you.
|
| Posted 8/13/08 1:33 PM |
| |
|
leighdvm
My golden boys!
Member since 3/06 4419 total posts
Name:
Michele
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Shannon, I've been waiting all day to see what your results were and praying hard!!!!!!!
|
| Posted 8/13/08 2:06 PM |
| |
|
KrisT
Two Boys for Me!!
Member since 1/07 5213 total posts
Name:
Kristin
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Shannon, I cannot imagine the emotional rollar coaster you are going through right now. I truly hope everything works out for you. I am definitely praying for you
|
| Posted 8/13/08 2:39 PM |
| |
|
Bops
My 3 wishes
Member since 12/07 13625 total posts
Name:
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
You absolutely did nothing to cause any of this, know that ! I will be thinking of you and !!
|
| Posted 8/13/08 2:44 PM |
| |
|
JennyPenny
?
Member since 1/08 12702 total posts
Name:
Jen
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
I'm still praying that things work out for you!
|
| Posted 8/13/08 3:12 PM |
| |
|
MetsGirl07
LIF O2 Vendor
Member since 12/07 16202 total posts
Name:
Deanna
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
im sorry you are not getting answers.. i know it must be so hard .. i cant imagine i hope you get your answers soon , im still praying for you
|
| Posted 8/13/08 3:17 PM |
| |
|
SweetTooth
I'm a tired mommy!
Member since 12/05 20105 total posts
Name:
Lauren
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Shannon, I hope you get some answers today. I am constantly thinking of you.
|
| Posted 8/13/08 3:21 PM |
| |
|
headoverheels
s'il vous plaît
Member since 6/07 42079 total posts
Name:
LB
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
i hope you are doing okay shannon... i have been thinking about you all day!
|
| Posted 8/13/08 3:51 PM |
| |
|
CaseyGirl
Mommy to 3 Boys :)
Member since 5/05 19978 total posts
Name:
Jen - counting my blessings...
|
Re: Wednesday- back from office...
Posted by leighdvm
Shannon, I've been waiting all day to see what your results were and praying hard!!!!!!!
Same here 
|
| Posted 8/13/08 4:21 PM |
| |
|
