so today ive been having anywhere between 6-8 contractions in one hour. (which is a big no no when your on a t-pump) so they are keeping me on strict bedrest till tuesday im only allowed out tomorrow for my 3 hour glucose test.
im FREAkING OUT that this little girl will be here soon and i mean SOON! and i have NOTHING but a stroller... my showers not for another 2 weeks. im not mentally prepared for labor and delivery.. although im contracting enough to understand the labor.. im petrified of the pain that may happen i know stupid and women have been doing it for years but i just have a very low tolerance and tend to when it gets bad. i HATE the UNKNOWN!!!!!! which is why i tend to be a huge planner. the fact that i have a 10 week window of when i could give birth is KILLING ME! i think i would feel slightly relieved if i was told i was having a c-secton just due to the certainty of it.. eventhought i really would rather not have a c-section! i still dont have a bag packed.
i cant stop crying because im scared poop-less and completely full of emotions. (trying to keep it clean) DH works crazy hours so im scared he wont be here and forget it next week he gets the official hire with this new job and he will be an hour an a half away!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me that this is semi normal to feel this way!!! ok i think im done sorry and thanks for listening!
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oh meg - it's totally normal - you are overwhelmed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
deep breathe. know that your doctors' won't allow you to be in pain if you don't want to be...(drugs or no drugs).....you have to have faith in them and their ability to do what they can for you.....that will be your biggest part. realize that the doctors' KNOW what they are doing and will not let you wallow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Posted by davenjess
oh meg - it's totally normal - you are overwhelmed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
deep breathe. know that your doctors' won't allow you to be in pain if you don't want to be...(drugs or no drugs).....you have to have faith in them and their ability to do what they can for you.....that will be your biggest part. realize that the doctors' KNOW what they are doing and will not let you wallow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks jess!! i think its just a little knowledge is dangerous since im a nurse and tend to be a horrible patient. plus because i get skeeved so bad and passed out watching a circumcision on my rotation they wouldnt let me see a live birth.. and well now i wish i would have so i know what to expect!!! i just need to have a little faith in the docs. when right now i feel like im flying solo here!
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Aww Meg.. hang in there... you will be fine.... when baby is ready she will come... start packing a little bag.... basic stuff.... dont work yourself up... it will only make things worse!!! Hang in there.... rest... have nick pack ur bag for you.... and just relax... obviously ur body and baby are in need of rest... so do just that.... as far as labor... like me and the rest of us... it will just happen... u can only be so ready and so prepared for it.... the drs and nurses will help you every step of the way as well as Nick and whoever else will be by ur bedside!!! Don'y worry.. hang in there!!!
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First, many hugs. It is so hard to be on bed rest. Your feelings are completely normal.
Do you have the following items yet? sleepers x3 burp cloths x3 diapers - given from hospital wipes ointment - given from hospital formula - gien from hospital crib, bassinet, or PNP and a bed sheet car seat and base fan for baby's room - circulating air prevents SIDS
Those are the must haves before a baby comes - everything else can be picked up after the baby arrives. Although your DH does not like to order stuff on line, that is the absolute bare bones of what you need. In case you go into labor before the shower you can give him the list and he can get them or order the stuff on line.
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Posted by LSP2005
First, many hugs. It is so hard to be on bed rest. Your feelings are completely normal.
Do you have the following items yet? sleepers x3 burp cloths x3 diapers - given from hospital wipes ointment - given from hospital formula - gien from hospital crib, bassinet, or PNP and a bed sheet car seat and base fan for baby's room - circulating air prevents SIDS
Those are the must haves before a baby comes - everything else can be picked up after the baby arrives. Although your DH does not like to order stuff on line, that is the absolute bare bones of what you need. In case you go into labor before the shower you can give him the list and he can get them or order the stuff on line.
Thank you!! im printing that list as a just incase measure!!
the only things ihave on that list right now is a fan for the room, bassinet and 3 sleepers. im giving him this list so its not a super surprise! thanks so much!
and women have been doing it for years but i just have a very low tolerance and tend to 
when it gets bad. 
i HATE the UNKNOWN!!!!!! which is why i tend to be a huge planner. the fact that i have a 10 week window of when i could give birth is KILLING ME! i think i would feel slightly relieved if i was told i was having a c-secton just due to the certainty of it.. eventhought i really would rather not have a c-section! i still dont have a bag packed.
ok i think im done sorry and thanks for listening!
