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ns1011
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the BFN club  I tried to hold it together but I am so crushed. I can't decide if it's a good or bad thing that DH is away right now and that I am alone. I so desperately wanted to surprise him when he got home on Monday. Looks like the only surprise he will be getting is a visit from AF who is due exactly then.
Why does this have to be so hard? I just don't understand what is wrong. I hate this whole process and what it is doing to me mentally and emotionally. I hate feeling like I am using DH every time we BD when both of us are really just too tired sometimes, I hate that it is taking the fun out of something we both use to enjoy so much, I hate getting my hopes up every month, I hate analyzing every stupid symptom that apparently means nothing, I hate that I get ripped up inside whenever I hear of or see another person PG, and I hate POAS with a glimmer of hope all the while in the back of my mind I have this little voice saying "you know it's not going to be positive".
I think I really needed to vent. I wish DH was here to give me a hug but at the same time, I know it's better he doesn't see me like this bc it ends up upsetting him and turning him off of the whole TTC thing.
I hope the rest of you have better luck.
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babylove628
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Sorry sweetie!!! How many dpo are you? Remember ur not out until AF shows, be hopeful, I'm praying for you  
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| Posted 4/17/10 9:51 AM |
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PennyCat
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I was in the same place last week.. my DH was away for the weekend and I soooo desperately wanted to surprise him with a BFP  Needless to say, I currently have AF and another appt set up with my RE Monday to discuss my next protocol 
What it comes down to is, whenever you get a BFP will be the perfect time and your DH will be thrilled, excited, surprised, etc no matter when that is!!! 
As for feeling sad, we have all been there... just know it's ok and totally normal to feel completely devastated.. and try to go out and do something you enjoy to enjoy the day.
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| Posted 4/17/10 9:52 AM |
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ns1011
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Posted by babylove628
Sorry sweetie!!! How many dpo are you? Remember ur not out until AF shows, be hopeful, I'm praying for you
Thank you. I am 11 or 12 DPO. AF is due on Monday. I really dont feel any different than I do every other month. I usually have cramping in the days leading up to AF and I actually have less this month so who know what is going on with me.
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| Posted 4/17/10 10:14 AM |
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ns1011
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Posted by PennyCat
I was in the same place last week.. my DH was away for the weekend and I soooo desperately wanted to surprise him with a BFP Needless to say, I currently have AF and another appt set up with my RE Monday to discuss my next protocol
What it comes down to is, whenever you get a BFP will be the perfect time and your DH will be thrilled, excited, surprised, etc no matter when that is!!!
As for feeling sad, we have all been there... just know it's ok and totally normal to feel completely devastated.. and try to go out and do something you enjoy to enjoy the day.
Thanks. I am actually going to the spa for a facial and now I guess I can do the massage as well without having to worry. Then I'm going shopping with a friend so hopefully that will keep me busy.
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| Posted 4/17/10 10:15 AM |
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I feel like I could have written this exact post!
I have no words of wisdom, but I will say that it comforts me that somebody else knows how I feel, that I am not reacting abnormally to all of this, and so I hope that it comforts you in return to know you're not alone.
lots of and
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| Posted 4/19/10 8:41 PM |
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Miss2mrs
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I know how you feel.
we have been trying for 7 months already. Its been rough. I have had 2 breakdowns throughout this whole process. we all know its hard. we just dont understand. when the time comes, you will be blessed with a lil one.
its been hard seeing people i work with, family and friends all getting PG and having babies.
don't give up hope. This feeling will pass and you will be hopeful the next time AF leaves and you will be ready to BD again.
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| Posted 4/19/10 8:47 PM |
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