and I told the priest all about my jealousy towards pregnant women and women who haven't experienced a m/c and all of those evil evil horrible feelings I have. I told him all about our trouble TTC and about the m/c. AND I CRIED AND CRIED AND CRIED...Like snot running down my face!!!!
Poor Father Bill. He had no tissues. He felt so bad. But who doesn't have tissues in a confessional???????
It was not pretty I don't think he knew quite what to do with me.. But he was nice and said some really nice things to me. So yeah... Confessing... never fun... confessing this year... really bad.
Carry on.
ETA: he actually made me feel good because he said that all of my feelings are natural and okay. And even though jealousy is not good, I shouldn't feel bad about it as long as I am not taking it out on others. So that made me feel better.
Having a m/c and dealing with TTC month after month is draining!! I felt exactly the same as you. Jealous of my SIL and BFF who were preggo... it's not fun. But, I know your time will come, just like mine did. Hang in there. I hope you are feeling a lot better now that you have gotten your feelings out into the open.
