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My birth experience
Hi everyone. I've been trying to figure out the best way to tell my story while remaining positive and not scaring everyone! So, here is my best shot:
On Thursday morning, June 21st, my water broke in bed at 3:45 am. I jumped out of bed and immediately knew what it was b/c it felt like I was peeing myself and that is how everyone had always described it to me. I called the Dr. and since I didn't have any contractions yet she said to just labor at home for a bit and to call her at 7:00 am. Right after I got off the phone contractions started and they were pretty intense right off the bat. I was confused b/c I always thought they started at like 20 min apart and got closer and closer together, but mine were 2-3 min apart consistently from the beginning. I was shaking so hard b/c I was really scared and knew that labor was not far away. I took a shower and after I dried my hair I called my Dr. and DH and I headed into the hospital.
I was 5cm when I got checked! Everyone was really surprised and I was happy I would be staying. I asked for an epidural and had one within 45 minutes. The epidural itself was a breeze, although I had an electrical shock go down my right leg which didn't hurt but was a bit surprising.
I was happy from 6am-8am and then all hell broke loose. My Dr. started me on Pitocin and increased it rapidly. I was in so much pain despite the epidural and had tears just streaming down my face. The nurse turned down the pitocin and I was able to relax a bit. They told me there was a bolus (sp?) that I could press to give myself more epidural and I was pretty psyched about that, but soon after I pressed it the first time I started to get a really weird sensation at the base of my neck...it was almost like a pinched nerve....well, to make a long story short that pain got unbearable REALLY quickly. They called the Dr's up and NOBODY could figure out why I was in such pain...I told them I knew it was the epidural b/c it was directly related to everytime I pressed that button to get more medicine.
The pain was SO bad...the worst I have ever felt in my life. I could not move my head to the side or up and down (I basically couldn't move at all) or I was in EXCRUTIATING pain. I could not even lay down flat and the nurses had to prop my head up with several pillows. The best part was they didn't even have heating pads available b/c they aren't allowed for some reason.
Anyway, I quickly dilated to 10 cm (the baby's head was still pretty high though) and they wanted me to push....they said I was pushing well but I couldn't even concentrate on it b/c of my neck pain. They wanted me to relax so I literally rested for 3 hours while fully dialated. Everytime they asked me to push I just couldn't...I physically could not move without feeling like I was dying. We discussed all the options...I asked for other drug options...even asked to stop the epidural....but any other drugs would have gone to the baby and they were afraid to stop the epidural b/c I was too far along and I was already talking about a c-section.
At 3:00 I had had it. I wanted to die - literally...the pain was so unbearable. My DH was freaking out b/c nobody knew what to do and nobody could help me. I requested a c-section b/c I just needed the pain to stop. The Dr's obliged and they wheeled me in for surgery which was SO painful b/c they wanted me to lay down flat and I COULD NOT do it....so just picture me being wheeled down the halls of this hospital with my arms in the air holding myself from laying flat...while screaming and crying out things like, "this is insane", "someone please help me", etc...
I had to mentally talk to myself to lay down flat for the c-section. I was crying hysterically but the Dr's moved fast. The c-section itself was no day in the park either...the pressure was unbelievable, but Madison Rose was born at 5:01 pm and weighed 7 lbs exactly and was 20 inches. She just looks just like Daddy and has SO much dark hair. She is really beautiful and we are lucky to have her. I have attached some pics.
After the c-section I found out that Madison was sunny-side-up and never descended fully into my pelvis, so even if I had been able to push I probably would not have been able to get her out vaginally and would have ended up with a c-section anyway. That makes me feel good b/c I was really dealing with guilt over my pain presiding over the kind of birth experience I wanted.
I am glad I had the 4 days in the hospital to recover b/c breastfeeding has been the HARDEST thing I have ever done. It is so difficult I can't even believe it. Our first night home with her (last night) was crazy...she didn't sleep at all and finally at 4:00 am I caved and gave her formula and she finallly slept. We are seeing the Pediatrician today and I'm going to discuss formula feeding b/c breastfeeding is really wearing me down physically and emotionally.
This baby stuff is serious business! I will update you all when things get better and after I have recovered. I probably won't be on much for awhile.
Thanks for all your fm's and support
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johnsae
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Selden78
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awwww she is beautiful :)
Best of luck
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bayla
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Re: My birth experience
OMG i am so sorry you had such a bad experience!!! but thank god you and Madison are OK!! Did they ever find out what was causing that pain in ur neck? That must have been so scary for you and your DH
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LI2VA
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Re: My birth experience
Wow thats some story! Sorry you had such an awful expeirence. She is such a cutie! 
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Re: My birth experience
WOW...I"m so sorry you had to go through all of that, it must have been horrible!!
ON a brighter note..at least it's over and now you have your beautiful daughter to hold!!
Congrats to you & DH!
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johnsae
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OMG i am so sorry you had such a bad experience!!! but thank god you and Madison are OK!! Did they ever find out what was causing that pain in ur neck? That must have been so scary for you and your DH
They "think" it was a muscle spasm of some sort due to the epidural....but nobody really knows. It was really scary but I'm just thankful I had no residual effects from it b/c the entire time I was thinking "what if I have permanent damage?"....
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dpli
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Re: My birth experience
She's a beautiful baby. Sorry your labor was so rough. Take care of yourself too!
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Re: My birth experience
Congrats!! Shes such a doll! So sorry to hear about your experience. You were tough and hung in there.
Enjoy being a mommy!
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What an experience! I am sorry you had to go through so much pain but you have a beautiful daughter! Congrats! 
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DUCKS2001
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Re: My birth experience
wow you went through alot i am glad you are doing better. Madison is gorgeous .. CONGRATULATIONS!!!
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Aga
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oh wow, that is some story! I am sorry you birth experience was not what you expected! but your Madison is beautiful 
and dont worry BF has been the hardest thing for me as well... some days Ijust wanted to give up... I am pumping right now because my boobs are just so sore
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spooks
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Sorry to hear you had such a scary experience. I am glad you are now doing well and that the baby is healthy and adorable ! Don't put too much pressure on yourself with BF etc. - just enjoy being a mom now that you have Madison with you!
Congrats!
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DanaRenee
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Re: My birth experience
So glad everything is OK despite your experience...and your little girl is beautiful!!  Congrats and lots of luck to you l!!!
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munchkinbugs
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Wow!!! Well I'm glad everyone made it thru that story ok. It's all worth it!!! She looks beautiful!!! Congrats!!!
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jellybean78
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Sorry you had such a bad experience Madison is beautiful. Congrats
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lulugrrl
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OMG..your birth story, I am so very sorry that you had to experience so much pain. WOW!
As far as Madison, she is just so beautiful, and I love her little outfit, ADORABLE!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!
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pinkandblue
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Re: My birth experience
wow, what a story, Alicia
She is GORGEOUS..hang in there, it will get better, I promise
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skygirl
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Wow- sorry it was so rough for you.
YOur daughter is beautiful 
Thanks for sharing your experience.
COngratulations again
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debsey75
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Re: My birth experience
Sorry to hear that you had to go thru all of that. But the end results is worth it, she is beautiful.
Congrats and welcome home!
  
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JennZ
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Oh she is so cute, Congrats, Sorry you had a hard time during but Im sure it was worth it. She is precious. Good Luck and try and get some rest.
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Aw - she is grougeous - sorry you had such a horrific experience!
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emilain
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Re: My birth experience
1st of all CONGRATS!! 2nd, epidurals indeed can pinch a nerve, debilitate a muscle and it can wreak havoc (temporarily mostly), I'm so sorry that your birth experience was so horrible, but I am sure Madison will make up for it in the years of happiness she will bring to you and your husband. Welcome Madison
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HopefullySoon
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Re: My birth experience
Congrats on your beautiful baby girl!!
I've been having breastfeeding issues too. It's definitely much harder and more time consuming than anyone ever told me. I'm trying to hang in there (my dd will be 3 weeks on Thursday) and give her formula only at night to get her through the night feedings. During the day she seems to not be as hungry as she is at night. So far it's working b/c the nights have been okay.
Good luck and congrats again!!
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Ophelia
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wow Alicia.
I am so glad you are better. what an experience for you.
your daughter is just beautiful. I love that pic of her and dh.
and dude, seriously, your hair already looks great in that last pic  
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