Do you feel like.....

I was talking to a coworker the other day about my mom, and I said one of the hardest things is that whenever something big happens, good or bad, I feel like I loose my mom all over again.

For example, we are moving in 2 weeks, we sold our home and bought a new one. And I have been a really crazy woman with all this and one of the biggest things bothering me is that my mom will never see my new house. I feel like as I prepare for my move, I have had to relive so much of her death again, going through feelings I had 2 years ago when she first passed away. Things like anger, confusion, hurt, abandoment etc.

Its not like the rest of the time I dont miss her, but I think most of the time I have accepted her absence, but when something big happens its like she just died...


Does this make any sense???

yes it makes complete sense. i lost my mom almost 12 years ago. she missed my college graduation, my wedding, the birth of my two children, and millions of every lil day things i would love to tell her about. and i agree, i get so mad, angry and sad. just wanted you to know, you are not alone.

You're not alone. Every time something good, bad, whatever comes up I relive the fact that she's gone. Congratulations on your house and just know that she's already seen it

absolutely, getting married, being preggo, having Isabella here makes it sooo hard.

I couldn't agree with you more. I got diaganosed with breast cancer 2 months ago at the age of 33. I thought planning my wedding was hard to go trough without my mom. This is even worse.
Everyone wants their mom when they are sick, I don't care how old they are.

yup- every good time is overshadowed with a bit of gloom that my mom is not here to share this with me...

I went thru my enagment and wedding with out her

now my brothers wedding, my sisters wedding, graduations, first home purchases- and babies

will all be less happy occassions for my family

even having some small great thing happen isn't as fun when you can't call your Mom

and when something bad happens- forget it- it's a million times worse

most people don't get it-

I know exactly what you mean. I miss my father every single day but it's been unbearable this year since my sister got engaged & married. The same during my engagement/wedding. Neither of us could even stand to be near his brother/our uncle because it just broke our hearts to look at him.

I went thru college graduation, engagement, wedding and now I'm buying a house, all without her. I always miss her, but these are the times when I miss her the most...when some important life event happens. I remember her crying in the hospital, saying that all she wants to do is see me move into my first apartment, get married and have a baby, and how unfair it is that she won't be there.

I completely understand how you feel.

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Posted by anjerandunder

You're not alone. Every time something good, bad, whatever comes up I relive the fact that she's gone. Congratulations on your house and just know that she's already seen it

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Yep! Can totally relate... EVERYTHING IS BITTER SWEET!! EVERYTHING!