How dare you play the victim card. This was your choice. You were the one that chose to not know them, not see them and never meet my son. That is and was on YOU!! Now you tell people that you must be an awful father because I don't talk to you! How dare you lie!!Yes, you were and are an awful father. I have always grown up feeling second best to your mistresses children. You know the ones- the one that left his wife a day after she gave birth to their child and the other goody-too shoes one that got busted for drugs in high school. Let me tell you that was a fun way to go up. To do all the right things, always try to win your approval to just be constantly compared to them and told how they are better. Just because when you decided to get mad at me AGAIN, for something that my brother did, I didn't go running after you this time, doesn't mean you can play the victim. I am glad you got mad, I am glad you choose not to be in their lives because now they will not grow up second best. How dare you play the victm the only victims are my children for having an awful grandfather like you!!!
Every time I think that I am over this whole thing I guess that I am not. I guess that it will always bother me that my children are not good enough for you to love. I have grown up always knowing that I was not good enough but now I realize you feel the same about my kids. It kills me. I should be happy that you are not in their lives so you can't directly effect them but in a way you are and it's still hurts me. Like tonight it bothers me that you have never met my son, that you don't care to meet my son. I actually thought about driving out to your house tomorrow and introducing you to him but then I realized that you don't care to see him so why bother. You knew when we rushed him out to the hospital and yet you didn't call, come to the hospital or even come to our house, nothing. You knew where and when I was having him and again you did nothing. This still tears me up inside and I don't understand why. I shouldn't let you do this to me and I should not let this effect me but it is. I hate you for having this ability to still effect me.